Freak tried Art (5)

I should kinda stop posting.

Hm. What to do? What to say?

I feel like I've fallen into a deep hole. Quite literally cause my legs and arms are scratched up from falling so many times. (Though it's mostly healed now)

I'm sorry for kinda dropping this on all of you right now where it's like, you can't even really contact me right now to help me.

Either way, my vacation has been total, absolute shit up until now. Not that I'm not used to it.

I wish I could once in my life experience a family vacation that doesn't end with everyone yelling at me and me feeling like a miserable piece if shit.

It's not like my parents care though. Like, not even a single bit.

How I can tell?

Well, a few days ago, we were on an 6-8 hour trip up a steep mountain. I forced myself to go even though I never get that feling of success my parents always tell me about. So we're almost up there, like, only 400 meters left to go. But my leg suddenly starts hurting like a bitch and since we're going the same way back down which is about 2 or 3 kilometres, I tell my parents I'll wait for them to come back cause I want a pause and those additional 800 meters won't do me any good. What do they do? Force me, threaten me even and hit me until I give in and walk up there even though the excruciating pain in my leg is killing me. What do I get for my efforts? Yelled at. Yay. Much yay.

I'm sorry for being so... unhappy? Moody even? But really, this is the worst time of the year, EVERY year. Although, last year was acceptable cause my grandparents came along so there weren't any painful tours.

I really envy everyone who can enjoy their vacation. I'd much rather have school these six weeks than spending even only three of them on vacation.

Okay, I'd love to rant some more but the wifi I found is pretty bad so I'll try to upload a few pics I drew for your entertainment, kay?