I don't know why I am panicing
I actually have what I have been wanting for so long
I say one daring thing and bam
I don't know what to do
What ever he says I feel worse
I can't control these emotions but I thik writing is helping
It's my own self narration momologue
I'm actually calming down
But I have a message from him to open...
Not so bad, but now I feel guilty for him satying up
He's too nice to be cught up in someone like me
I'm trying to breath deep
Bu my head is spinning and I don't know what to do
But I'm feeling better?
But definitely not ready to think about why I just panicked
Lesson learned, don't think too much
Just write and try to breath
Okay I cleaned my face and I'm feeling a little...well nothing
I just can't think too much right now but I sort of don't feel anything
Okay just reserve what youre thinking, don't bring it up tonight
it will ruin everything, so just type it here
I just feel a little useless right now because I can't contribute to the conversation like a normal adult
I am also skeptical about why you like me and I want to ask if it's because youre scared I'm going to hurt myself and that if youre thetr I won't. If it is true youre probably right but then youre just stringing me along until we break up
break up means were dating which means I can't post this for like another month
but how paranoid am I? ;ike why do I think everything Is fake? why can't I believe that he actually likes and cares for me.
now, I guess he does because I gave him multiple times to pull out and away and he didnt
and he was the one to kiss me (on the cheek) three times....
He was the one to slightly cuddle with me, and tell me i'm cute and beautiful and selfless
he didn't have to...but he did
and I really like him for that
maybe not love... not true love. like 3/5 to love
So I need to remember that, it is not love, it is a intense crush
and were in the honeymoon phase right now
let's see how things go
*So this was my thought process for 45 minutes from midnight 9/2/17- 12:45 9/3/17....totally pure, no editing done for authenticity...It's now 10/16/17 at 7;45 and I think everyone on here knows who this is about and knows the situation, but now I think I can publish this, also things are going really well, I still have random panic spells but not too many*
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I'm no Poet
PoesiaSome of these are vent poems, short 1 scene story things, the occasional script, sorry, I get stressed. And just some poems have written:) I would love your feedback.