Just when everything is okay..
I hate this, I don't belong here
I don't even know if I'm real right now..
It just hit me
It just came out of no where and destroyed me again..
it's worse this time,
It's not about love this time, I love who I'm with right now more than anything,
But I just don't feel good enough
I don't feel like myself and no one even notices
It's always dim, and when it's not dim... it's blackness..
I miss it.. how I felt before..
It it wrong to miss the loneliness? ...yes.
I just hate myself, I hate not knowing who I'm going to be
Everything feels so warm and safe but I don't know if it's what I want..
I'm so afraid he'll leave me... but I'm afraid of him staying too.. because I know I'm not good enough and I believe that with all my heart... I'm not good enough for anyone... he'll tell me I am because he's the sweetest person on earth... but I'll alway have to live with knowing he can do better... so, so much better..
I don't know what I want anymore... my perfect city of gold isn't what it was before..
now all I want is to leave behind everything again...
I don't know if this is a cry for help from the back of my mind...
I don't know about any of this anymore... I'm so stupid... I'm sorry I'm like this...
ESTÁS LEYENDO
Poems and Feelings
PoesíaJust some little things that come to me when I'm feeling upset, happy, mad, or just plain old sappy. This is for all the lovely misunderstood people out there, everyone has reasons and everyone is strong, ya know why, because we're amazing, don't fo...
