Half Truths and Hidden Memories

What If

Sometimes I lie awake at night
Waiting for morning light

And I wonder a single thing
Would it be better if this was just a fling?

Would we both be happier if we had never met?
It's moved so fast, faster than a jet

Upon the words of friend now foe
I have to wonder, is this okay though?

If we had never met, how would we act?
What would we be like without our pact?

Would I still be a heartless soul?
Stuck at the bottom of the black hole?

Would he still be looking for one to love?
Or would his constant joy fly like a dove?

Tossing and turning late at night
These thoughts give me such a fright

What if his parents are right?
What if I'm naught but a blight?

Tears unable to fall from my eyes
Due to that of a single guy

So I must ask myself and I
Is he the right one, is he the guy?

Or am I nothing but a stop in his life
Before he moves on, away from my strife

I wish to be the way I once was
Yet I don't want to be without a cause

I love him with all my heart
But the pain I feel is as sharp as a dart

That is why I lie awake at night
Thinking these thoughts that give such a fright

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