There's no me without you
You are my best of me
The best of me
Jimin gave me a box that day.
The day when we saw each other in the cemetery.
It was a box full of letters that you were never able to give me.
Letters that you wrote during all the days you stayed in the hospital.
I read them on the exact same night they were given to me.
I stayed up until four in the morning reading all two hundred sixty five letters.
Reading each letter felt bittersweet.
There was an odd mix of joy and sadness that I just couldn't understand.
And I felt like some fucking masochist reading them.
A part of me felt happy.
It was a kind of happiness that I hadn't felt in a long time.
I felt good to remember you.
What you were like.
Your personality.
Just everything about you in general.
But the other part of me felt like total shit.
I felt bad.
More than half of the letters talked about how you were sad.
And I felt like shit because you never told me.
I knew something was wrong.
I never knew that it was that bad.
In almost all the letters, it stated that I have to learn to live without you.
Even though it would hurt.
And because of those letters, I'm all fucked up again.
Just when I thought I was getting better.
I honestly don't know if I'm glad that Jimin gave me the letters or mad at him.
Because it fucking hurts.
I don't think I've cried this much in so long.
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Best Of Me • m.yg
Fanfiction❝ It was just another fucked up dream about the past. Great. Just another happy memory turned into a nightmare. ❞ Where Min Yoongi remembers all of the best and worst moments he has ever had with her before she left. ©NicholasEC | edited |
