Entity

Myself

I hated you so much,
I began to rot in bitterness.

As I was left in the cold to freeze,
And embed into the snow.
God only knows the things I had wished upon you.

Even though deep within my heart,
I still loved you.

But you were never good for me,
And quite frankly I was too good to you.

I even lost myself along the way,
And gave you pieces of myself you never deserved.

I won't say I ever regretted our "love",
Because I am who I am today from the choices I have made and the decisions I had to cross.

I have never looked back and thought
"Why did I ever".

Though, there were times I wondered why I ever gave you my time.

But not once have I ever wished anything differently.

Because you have showed me many things you probably never knew you did.

I have learned to love myself in so many ways.

I learned to fall in love with myself before anyone else.

That my happiness comes first,
And it always will.

No matter how selfish it sounds and it is,
I deserve that.

No matter how many complaints I receive for my actions or my words, I come first and I always will.

Because my love will always be the best.

So in reality, I must thank you.
Not because you hurt me or crushed every part I gave to you.

But I thank you for showing me,
I need to put myself first.
Em.