Entity

Wanting

I want him to be in love with me,
I want his head to fill with butterflies at the thought of me.

His hands become sweaty when I'm near,
His heart races when we touch.

I want something I know I may not get,
I have risked almost everything for it.

I have removed one brick at a time hoping that if I opened up, I can get the same.

I'm emotional,
I'm a hand full.

But for a fact I know my feelings are true.
Full of surprises and emotions.

I have dreams upon dreams of you loving me.

You say sweet words that make me melt and I feel foolish.

You tell me I'm pretty,
That you're happy we met.

I become puddy at such words it's sicken.

I've grown accustomed to you being in my everyday life and sometimes you do make me sad.

Even angry to the point where I want nothing to do with you.

But like a fool,
My emotions rush back at the sound of your voice.

What am I suppose to do?
What if everything is one sided?
What if my time was wasted?

What if everything you've said was untrue?

Will I become blue?
Cry until my eyes are red and puffy?

Will I recover?
Why am I in so deep?

I want you to be in love with me,
So much it's sicken and out of character.

Smile when you see my name,
Think of me when you close your eyes.

I want you to be in love with me so bad,
It actually makes me sad.

Em.