A Billionaire's love story

Chapter Thirty Nine - Unbearable

"The heart dies a slow death,
Shedding each hope like leaves.
Until one day  there are none,
No hopes,Nothing remains"

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Being reasonable. That's what we were always taught. Loving when we should, hating when we've to, being patient when we're told, forgetting everything and moving on when we've to.
That's what being reasonable is. And let me tell you....It sucks. Big time. I did thought that it was going to be like this too....that....he'll be like this too.

But I forgot. I forgot that the man I fell in love with doesn't go by any rules. He was crazy...I was stupid...but together....together we were insane. Because we were in love. A crazy kind of love. It was not normal. It was far from it.
But it was us and that was enough.
Whoever said that love is peaceful haven't met us. Love is never peaceful. It's crazy. It makes you do crazy things. It doesn't know boundaries. It can only exist, remaining even when it shouldn't be. Even when I wished for it to go away...It remains, mocking me, slapping me hard to make me see the truth.
That just because I thought it'll go away, doesn't  mean that it'll.

No. In reality....It never did left in the first place. It never did....

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"This is the third time in a row, Sir. In a week too."
Doctor Nathan exclaimed with worry while looking at the man sitting in front of him.
A man whose eyes were a dull shade of green now surrounded by deep dark circles as if he hadn't slept in days. His hair that were always styled before looked messy now. Messier than usual as if nobody has combed through it in days.
In a word this man doesn't look like the man the doctor used to know. No. Not even a little.
This man looks different. This man looks.....dead.

"Mr. Bentley.." He tried to grab his attention again. But Zack's eyes were not on him. They were outside as if searching for something but at the same time not seeing anything either.

"Sir..." The doctor tried to say again. "You've to take care of yourself. This panic attacks had increased . You know that if this continues, you'll suffer from a massive heart attack and..."

"Die.." A soft murmur left his lips as he finally looked at the doctor. A smirk playing across his lips as if he was enjoying an inside joke the doctor couldn't understand.

"Sir.."

"Come on doc. Let's face it. I'll die." A laughter left his lips making him look like an insane man who's limit was finally broken."But it seems more inviting than life now."

Dr.Nathan's brows furrowed in confusion. How can a man joke about his own death!
"Just take the pills. You'll be fine."

"Fine..." Another mocking laughter left his lips."What is fine, doc? "He stood up from the couch, his body wavering slightly.

"Mr. Bentley!" The doctor stood up to help him. But Zack waved at him dismissively.

He slowly walked towards the window and leaned on it. " Tell me doc, what is the meaning of being fine?"

It was only then when the doctor noticed how much weight that man has lost. His clothes were hanging loosely on him.

"Does fine means having to wake up everyday with the thought that it was just another 24 hours, another 1440 minutes and 86400 second I've to breath? Tell me doc,is that how fine supposed to mean?"

Dr.Nathan looked really taken aback by his response. What was he talking about? Who was this man?

"Or does fine means every time I grab at my chest, trying desperately to just feel the beating of my heart only to realize that it isn't there anymore,just a big fucking empty hole that isn't of any use to me anymore." His breathing was getting more uneven with passing second. " Tell me doc, does that sound fine to you?"
"ANSWER ME, IS THAT HOW FINE SUPPOSED TO MEAN"