A Billionaire's love story

Chapter Forty Two-Fragments

And Then Suddenly

For No Apparent Reason

  Everything   

Started To Fall Apart

Too Quickly To Fix

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When does it feel like you're dead even if you're breathing? When does it feel like you don't want to exist even though existing is the only thing you can do ? When does it feel like that you're breaking and breaking and breaking without anything to hold you together?

I know when. It's when you fall and there's no one to catch you. You get hurt..you get bruised..you became irreparable...beyond anyone's help...beyond any salvation. 

Am I in that place now? Am I breaking...! I don't know..I can't say anything for sure now . Not because I don't know but because I don't feel anything anymore . Two days..It's been two days since he left my place, two days since he talked to me, two days since my life stopped completely .

I shifted my eyes towards the I.C.U. The door was closed. But even then I can feel his presence. They won't let me enter the room . They say that it's not good for him .They say that he needs rest..Am I bad for him That much? I asked doctor Nathan . If I don't go near him will he wake up? He didn't answered..nobody is telling me anything . Why aren't they?

But I listened to him . I didn't go near him again . I just sat in front of his room glancing at him through the glass...and wishing that he'll wake up . That he'll look at me again .It doesn't matter if he hates me. I just need to see those eyes looking at me again even if it's with hate.

My eyes went towards him again . He was so still . various tubes attached to his body. A monitor beside him beeping loudly..But he..he didn't looked back . He never for once opened his eyes in two days .

"Why aren't you waking up" I whispered quietly. "Why are you punishing me like this ? Can't you just yell at me instead? Argue with me..scold me..hate me..whatever you want. Just not this , Please just not like this. "

"Liz.." Anna held my hand to comfort me . But I don't need comfort . I need that man to open his eyes and look at me . That's all I need. I can do anything in this world to just see those emeralds again. Anything.

"Ann...he..he's not waking up..tell..him to wake up...make him ....wake..up...make him.."

She didn't answered except looking at me with sympathy..Tears welling up in her eyes.

"Liza..." A voice came from behind me . Her voice were like thorn to me as I looked at her . Hatred..Burning Hatred. That's what I felt . Not for Melissa...no...for me...How could I ever hand him to someone freely ? How? When I Knew how he was like..When I knew his stubbornness clearly...how?

"You.." I stood up looking at her apologetic damn freaking eyes. "You forgot your promise. You...said that he'll be ok..that he still loves you..that you can make him happy. YOU PROMISED ME." I was angry at her but I was more angry at myself .

" Calm down, Liza...calm down ."Lucas's defeated voice came from behind her . He was sitting there looking like a man who has given up .

"I'll...calm down..." I wiped my eyes and went towards him . "I'll do whatever you ask. I...I'll leave him..I'll never show my face to him . I...I'll do whatever you ask. Just make him wake up . Lucas...You..you're his friend. He'll listen to you . Please.." I held his hand.." I'm begging you...wake him up . T...tell him to open his eyes...Tell him..ple..please."