Last night was the best night of my life.... After all this time me and Jake finally had sex and the best ever.... I felt so good this morning like my life was in order and Jake actually sized my finger early this morning and gave me a more fitting ring and I went out right after to do some motherly things.
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But I had to go back home to my beautiful family and my lovely sister because we had a lot of catching up to do.
AT HOME***
I walk into the kitchen and see my Blue cooking breakfast and Jake is with the kids in the playroom so I go catch up with Blue.
Blue: Well you look happy.... did you get some last night.... she says with a curious look on her face same old Blue Neveah: yeah for the first time since he came back and it was the best I forgot how bi-(gco) Blue: okay I don't want to hear all that but I'm happy for you sis Neveah: I am happy your back you don't know how much I missed you... I literally would cry myself to bed some nights Blue: I just needed to be in hiding I couldn't live with Chris just to find out that he was way younger then mom and he was lying to all of us.... she says looking down Neveah: don't worry about that he's a better person now we actually get along quite well and he is like a brother-(gco) Blue: you met Trey then he's the one that brought the best out of Chris before Trey Chris was this abusive selfish bitch who never took responsibility for anything and when Trey came it was like Chris became a new person like a r-role model and when the state took our son away from us he promised he would take him out and he never did.... my fucking son.... she says while covering her face Neveah: don't beat yourself up sis just keep yourself together and watch how everything plays off While Blue and I are talking Faith came up to me telling me her dad wanted to talk to me so he sent Faith and Aubrey to Blue. I headed to the game room and seen Jakes palm on his forehead so I rush to his side. Neveah: hey baby what's wrong. I say while placing my arm over his shoulder Jake: there is something I need to tell you and it's been killing me inside but I didn't know how to say it since I finally have you I don't want to lose you Neveah: Jake what's wrong what are you talking about.... this time I say it with a serious tone moving to the other side of the couch Jake: when I left for that long time I met this girl.... I thought she could fill the void in my heart to replace you and no matter how hard I tried to love her she never compared to you she wasn't a run away like your sister or me she was a normal girl that's why I thought she was like you in so many ways she helped me and she showed me affection and love..... we had a "connection" but then.... we had sex... Neveah: you weren't with me Jake so don't beat yourself up it's fine Jake: that's not the thing we had sex and she got pregnant..... we have a girl she's 8 now and I should've told you when we first got together but it just didn't feel right at the moment My heart felt broken hearing Jake say he has another daughter really messed with my emotions we've been together for a year and he decides to tell me now a day after we're engaged Neveah: I-I am happy for you how does she look? I say while faking a smile and holding back tears
Jake: this is her mother Anastasia we didn't leave on a bad note and she knows about you so she told me to go out and find you
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Neveah: aww that's nice of her if I ever see her I owe her all respect Jake: and this is my daughter Bella she was that other half of me since I missed you and I really didn't have those type of feelings towards her mom
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Neveah: how cute...she look just like Faith except with green eyes.. I say letting a tear fall... why did you just leave her? Jake: she needed to stay with her mom she wouldn't be in any great situation if she stayed with me... her mom is a grinder just like you so her staying with her was for the best... are you mad? I should be mad.... I should be throwing pillows at him.... giving him back his ring....crying....screaming.....cursing.... but I'm not going to because I know he loves me and he did the right thing by telling me Neveah: never.... and then I give him a quick kiss and call it a night.
I woke up with a major headache I feel like yesterday was a movie everything happened quickly from Blue coming back and Jake telling me he has a daughter everything seemed so....surreal but now all I have to do is wait for the special day....
