Blood Sugar

Part Thirty-One: Is This It?

Johns POV 

Thursday night

The night with Kaya was beautiful as always. But also fucking awful. I wanted to touch her and when I did, I wanted to kiss her. I was probably going crazy for feeling something between us. At least her words told me I was. I don't know for much longer I can do this. It makes me feel miserable as fuck. To just think of it.. she's right next to me.. but I won't ever have her. She loves someone else. She's getting touched by someone else. She kisses someone else. She wakes up next to someone else. Fuck man, I know I can't do this.

I was in a rage and searched my trash for the digits some girl gave to me a few weeks ago. Found 'em. Her name was Mia. I couldn't really remember much about her, but I knew she seemed nice and that's enough for now. I called.

"Hi, you're talking to Rachel." Fuck, did she give me a wrong number? I'll give it a try. "Is Mia there?" "Yeah sure, wait a sec... What did you say was your name?" "I didn't say anything... But it's John."

I was thinking of hanging up. Maybe this was a bad idea. Maybe I should make Kaya fall for me and make her realize that I'm her kind of guy. Maybe she will break up with Lee. Maybe she'll get with me. But it was too late. Mia answered the phone before I could think this through.

"Hi.. John?" "Hi Mia." "Didn't expect you to call." "Yeah, I lost your digits and found them in the laundry today and thought I'd call." "Ah okay. How are you?" "Pretty good. And I was wondering if you wanted to come to Anthonys' house tomorrow night. Just hanging out." "Yeah sure, sounds good." "I'll pick you up. See you tomorrow."

This would be the right thing for me now. I bet Mia's a good girl. I might even like her more than I thought before. She could be a lot more interesting than I thought. And she likes me. And she's not dating Lee. She's dating me. This is good. I promised myself to give her a chance and try to keep away from Kaya. At least emotionally. And a little distraction won't hurt. My mood was immediately rising.

I didn't tell Flea or Chad about Mia the next day. Only Tony knew I'd bring her over. Since I had a good idea for a song, I went to his house early and took my guitar. We sat down together and I played him some riffs that I had figured out. "Hey, I think I have some lines in my textbook that will go along with this one", he said and nodded. He came back and started humming. I joined in on guitar.

Life's too short to be in a hole.
So bust into your funkiest stroll. Space is king or so I sing.. subway to venus.

Tony clapped his hands. "This is big, John. We need to show this to Flea and Chad later", he said happily.

When the other guys finally came, we jammed some until Kaya and Lara were there. I stayed on the couch and played the guitar. I wanted to figure out Subway to Venus as a whole. But  fuck, I also wanted to see her.. I got up.

She was talking to Chad. "Funny, Chadwick", I heard her say. I put my arm around Chad's shoulder. "What's so funny?" Kaya looked down. "Um.. nothing", she said. "Oh, come on", I said. "She thought it was funny how you miss her like crazy", Chad said with his in-your-face kind of attitude. "Chad!!!", Kaya whined. Tell her I've missed her now? No way! "Why should I miss her? I had her lying in my bed just yesterday." Chad placed his fist on his mouth. "Whoahoahoa Johnny", he growled. Kaya gave me an evil look. "You wish." Then she turned to Chad. "Since this charmer over here doesn't own any furniture I sat on a mattress.. on the floor.. in the hall.. no bedroom. no candles.. no romance. The only thing that John got wild and dirty with was his guitar", she said and rolled her eyes on me. "Whatever, I only heard blah blah blah", Chad said and chuckled. "Fuck off Chad. I'm gonna hang with Flea now. You guys are stupid", she said and poked her tongue out. Me and Chad looked to each other and laughed.

We went back inside. "Hey Chad, I'll go pick up a girl now. You better not mention Kaya in front of her, okay?" He nodded understandingly but couldn't hold back his comment. "You sure are a real casanova, Mr. Frusciante." I laughed. "Yeah, whatever."

"No romance", Kayas words were ringing in my ears. She'll never want me. No fucking use trying.

I picked up Mia. She was already waiting for me. And she looked prettier than I remembered. She had a huge smile on her face when she opened the door. We talked all the way to Tony and didn't stop there. She was quite funny and real smart. We were so caught up in talking, I barely hadn't noticde we made it to Tony's street. I took a shortcut so we could go inside through the back door. I didn't want to have to walk past Kaya.. she would probably mess with my feelings once more.

Tony welcomed us in and offered drinks. I felt a positive vibe all the way. I calmed down and focused on Mia. She smiled to me every once in a while. She looked happy. And it felt good to make someone happy. We talked this and that and hours flew by.

I didn't even notice Kaya was there until she walked past us into the kitchen. "Hey, do you want anything to drink?", Mia asked. "I'll have a beer", I smiled.

Next thing.. Kaya rushed out of the kitchen.. soon afterwards Mia got out, too. And her happiness was brushed off her face. I didn't know what was happening. My first instinct was to follow Kaya. And I left Mia behind. Just like that.