Was it my fault?

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Natasha's pov

Soon the tears begin to drip like roofs after the rain. And then they flow slowly like a river. And then they stopped

My face turned cold, and I sat up on my bed hanging my legs over the side. I stood up and looked at myself in my mirror. Prominent cheek bones, plump lips, a small nose.
I grasped the hem of my shirt and pulled it up to just under my bra. I cringed at the sight. My torso was pink and full of scars. I released it letting the shirt fall back into place.
The steps creaked quietly as I walked down the stairs. I followed the oh so familiar sent of alcohol into the living room.

"Natalia perfect timing, grab me a bottle of vodka"
He said firmly, pointing to the cabinet
I didn't move.

"Now Natalia "
He said standing up

"No"
The words felt so good to say

" what was that?"

" I said no, mom wouldn't have wanted this"
I knew bringing up my mother would upset him.

" don't talk about her in this house!"
He said smashing the empty beer bottle on the ground. He matched towards me.

I held my breath.

* SMALL WARNING

Gripping my hair tightly he smashed me into a wall.
A little dizzy , I pushed my self off the wall. Holding my head, I felt the wetness of blood dripping down the side of my face.

" this isn't right"
I said emotionless, maintaining my cold face.
My father turned around and loomed over me.

" but you deserve this Natalia, after all you killed your mother"
I didn't hide the hitch in my breath. My eyes grew wide and I stumbled backwards.

" how could you say that?"

" don't you remember what happened? We were in the car, and little Natalia just had to point out the fox she spotted...."

*IF YOU ARE NOT READING ALL THE WARNING PARTS I STILL SUGGEST YOU READ THE FLASHBACK

Flashback

" mama papa look a fox!"
Natalia said pointing her small finger to the snowy forest on her right.

" look he's still there!"
She squealed
Both parents turned their heads to look at the fox . They could see nothing, Turing there heads to face the road again.

" there he's there I see him!"
Her mother turned her head .  That's when Natalia heard shouting and banging and felt like her world had turned upside down. And in reality it had, in more ways than one.

Natalia woke up a few hours later in the hospital. Her father sat next to her, head in his hands. That was the day Natalia's world shattered.

Flashback ended

A tear rolled down my face.

I lost balance when I felt a strong blow to my gut. Catching myself before I fell to the ground I raced up the stairs.
Finally collapsing on my bedroom floor I was racked with sobs that shook my whole body .
When I had used up all my tears I stumbled into the washroom. Grabbing a razor from my drawer and sitting in the now filled bath. My legs pulled up to my chest. My hands shook , and I felt the tears slowly begin to spill again.

Tipping my head to rest on my knees









I dropped the razor and cuddled my legs letting the tears blend in with the water

Damn anyone else think this chapter was deep? Probably shit but 🤷🏻‍♀️
Well I hope you guys liked this chapter, and I'm going to try and update as soon as I can. Thank you for being so supportive of me and this book

Love 10starlight
Xoxo
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