Marry Me Again

Chapter Forty Seven - I Don't Deserve You

Happy is what I feel when Selena walked through the door to our home every evening for the past three weeks, when I know for the rest of the night she's all mine. Don't get me wrong I'm not talking about anything sexual, in fact we haven't been intimate and I'm not complaining at all. I know despite what she thinks, she still isn't ready given my promiscuous past but I will wait for her however long she wants. She's so quiet, unwinding after a busy day at the firm since being promoted to senior partner and so just being near her lights me up inside, gives me a serenity I can never know without her being close. It's like the breaths I take aren't full when she's away, like the smiles I smile are incomplete somehow. Just lying next to her is my favorite place in the world. It's her that creates the warmth in my soul, her that fills me full of love and keeps the fire burning in my eyes. If that isn't happiness I don't know what is.

"He's been like this for the past twenty minutes Sel." Ariana's voice echoes in the back of my mind.

"Does he not have any appointments for the rest of today?"

"He has seven more."

"Then why hasn't he eaten something."I regain my full consciousness as the beauty that is Selena Bieber walks around my desk and sits on it right in the middle diagonal to where I sat on my chair. "Justin...."

I smile and place a light kiss on her inner thigh which was made possible by her rather short and tight black pencil skirt which I specifically did not recommend that she went to work with today. "I thought I told you this skirt was off limits." I whispered with a smirk playfully on my face but I was actually serious and she knows it.

Can you imagine she actually rolled her eyes at me and I don't know how its possible but she placed one leg over the other and folded her arms across her chest. I chuckle at how cute she is trying to act seemingly in control.

"Eat." she demanded

"Now it was my turn to roll me eyes. Did Ariana concocted this?

I notice she had already left my office respectfully so I buzzed her on my landline

"You know you really didn't have to invite the calvary here just to get me to eat Ari. I thought you were on my side trader." I teased and she just laughed before hanging up.

"Ariana didn't invite me, I was already going to stop by for lunch. Was hoping we could go out for lunch but since you've been in your own little world for the past half an hour-

"-oh please thats such an exaggeration!" I butted in. Cause it was, it can't be that long. I have a glance at my Rolex and I'm ashamed to admit I really have just been seated here day dreaming for the past twenty minutes. "I'm sorry Sel, we still can. I could just cancel my-

"-no, no, no, you are not cancelling anything. You have a packed day. I will meet up with Ashley and Vanessa instead. Nessa wanted to finalize her wedding plans."

I pouted and picked her up from my desk and placed her on my lap. "Lunch tomorrow then?"

She nodded then looked down in an attempt to hide her gorgeous blush but I subtly lifted her chin up and placed a gentle kiss on her lips "You are beautiful. And by far my biggest distraction."

"What are you talking about?" she giggled.

"Well for starters you're the reason I missed half of my lunch hour. I was thinking about how unbelievable the last three weeks have been."

She smiles and cups my face, just staring at me for a bit. Hazel eyes boring into brown. "It has, hasn't it....but you know what would make it even better?" she smirks and Jesus Christ I know exactly where she is going with this. My thoughts are confirmed when I feel her removing my belt and I REALLY fight the urge to not stop her, but in the end I do.