"I can't do it. I won't do it. I can't do it. I won't do it. I can't do it. I won't do it. I can't do it. I won't do it" I keep saying as I rock back and forth.
You ruined Sam just end it
I can't do it
Go kill yourself. Your a monster for what you have done to your friends
I won't do it
No one cares about you
You're right....
My eyes open slowly and travel to my nightstand. Carefully I stand up and walk toward the drawer slowly opening it to reveal a small black box.
Do it
I can't do it
End it all. Sam would be better without you
I won't do it
Just do it already Colby. No one will care
I can't do it...
Come on. Be a man and use it
"No! Leave me alone!" I scream as loud as I can throwing the box against the wall. I slide off my bed and put my knees against my chest while I just cry, not caring how loud I am.
Soon enough I hear footsteps running up the stairs and a knock at my door.
"Colby? It's Elton and Aaron. What's going on?"
"N-nothing. M' fine." I answer the two roommates as I start to rock back and forth even harder. The voices getting to much.
"Colby open this door."
"No.."
"Colby! Open it before I kick it down."
"Stop..please." I say before a sob leaves my mouth. I try breathing but it just gets harder and harder.
"Colby!" Elton screams again before he kicks the door open.
"Colby?" I hear Aaron say softly. Elton comes over to me and grabs my shoulders trying to stop me from moving. I look over at Aaron and see he picked up the black box that was now open.
"Elton, look." Aaron says. Elton looks at Aaron and notices what is in the box. Elton looks back at me and calms me down enough to ask me questions.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?"
"I-I.....because you would think I'm worthless or a whimp. It's the only way to make them stop." I say quietly.
"Make who stop?"
"T-the voices. I hate the voices. They tell me to do things I don't want to do. They get so loud...." I say as tears roll down my face again, "just make them stop....please just make them stop. I dont want Sam to know."
"Colby you need help.."
"No! No! They will only get worse.." I tell Elton. I hear his phone go off and he grabs it putting it to his ear. After a minute Elton looks at us.
"Its Sam. He had a seizure while sleeping. The doctors are saying to take him off of life support in two weeks if he doesn't wake up."
"Sam..."
You caused this
"Stop...."
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FanfictionCOMPLETED: First Book Sam Golbach is traumatized by the prank Sam Pepper and Colby pulled. Colby doesnt realize how troubled Sam is but once he notices Colby starts to beat him self up for it making his depression, that Sam has never known about, wo...
