Shattered

Chapter Nineteen

Thursday 7:32pm; 17 more hours

Sam hasn't even moved. How is he going to survive 17 more hours? It's like everything we've done has no effect. Even talking to him has no effect. I don't even know if he hears what I say.

"Sam you have 17 more hours. I understand if you have to go. I'll miss you so godamn much. I never even told you how I felt.....in person that is.

God I love you Sam. I don't want to continue anything without. I've rec-recently cut because, I - I don't want you to leave. The v-voices are so loud too but I - I ignore them....for you.

T-the last time I listened to them, it didn't end well. I try not to do anything but it's hard. Knowing that I have to continue our channel by my self.

All our old videos and pictures are still up....its just all a reminder. We are twenty one now Sam. Its been the best nine or eight years ever. It's been a long time and I won't forget you....

I had Taco Bell yesterday, it's your favorite. It was the first time I ate in a long time. I'm just rambling......I - I don't know what to say because the number seventeen is stuck in my mind.

All I can think about is not having you in my life anymore. Sam......you are the best person out there. The best friend ever. I wish I could of spent more time with you.......just try.....try to wake up.

You can leave, if you want, but know that you mean the world to me and I won't forget you, ever." I say squeezing Sam's hand tightly. I lean up and kiss his head softly before turning around and leaving the hospital.

Friday 10:48am; 1 hour and 12 minutes left

I'm sitting on top of a building. Sam is only going to be alive for another hour and couple more minutes. I've said what I've wanted to say. I wasnt joking about what I said, I can't live without him. It feels wrong.

My phone kept going off and wouldn't stop. I picked up my phone and checked the time. It's only 11:34am and Sam will be dead in less than thirty minutes.

I checked who texted me and saw it was Elton but I didn't care.

Elton: Colby where are you? 10:40am

Elton: Common Colby, you aren't at the house like you said you were. 10:49am

Elton: We are at the hospital. Sam isn't in the room...
11:00am

Elton: Come on Colby answer me!
11:15am

Corey: Sam is back in the room. They were doing test. Colby please answer.
11:23am

Corey: Sam has had a seizure again. They are trying to calm him.
11:43am

Corey: Sam has lost a pulse........Colby I'm so sorry
11:54am

I look at my phone and freeze. Sam is dead......My Sam is dead. All I wanted to do was hold him, apologize and apologize, tell him everything, just be next to him again.

I slowly turn around on the edge and walk around with the bag in my hands.

Do it Colby. This is the moment

"Get out of my head!" I scream. I throw the bag down as I put my hands in my hair. The wind messing it up. I start to pace even faster before I just stop.

"My Sam.......is dead." I say as reality hit. I fall to the ground as I keep my hands in my hair. I hear my phone go off more but I once again ignore it.

Elton: Colby! Get to the hospital now!
12:04pm

I slowly take the gun out of the bag as I examine it in front of me. I slowly bring it to my head hearing my phone go off again. I put my finger on the trigger.

I hear the roof door open and a gasp.

"Sir?"

Footsteps.

"Sir? Let go of the gun." I hear behind me. I shut my eyes tightly as I hear my phone go off again.

Elton: Sam's alive Colby
12:13pm

I pulled the trigger....

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I'm sorry....

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