I haven't left Sam's bed. Tomorrow is the last day he'll be on life support. If he doesn't wake up on Friday, then they will pull the plug. It's not fair. It's not fair at all.
Somtimes I can barley look at him. I don't know if it's because all the damage that's on his body (scars, cuts, broken leg) or if it's because I know that he will be gone and I can't do anything about it.
"Colby we are going to Taco Bell. Do you want anything?" Elton asks as he stands next to Corey.
"No I'm fine.....actually can you get me like a soda or something?" I say still looking at Sam's body.
"Yeah sure." Elton says walking out of the room.
"Colby...are you okay?" Corey asks.
"No. My friend dies in about 36 hours I'm pretty sure....I'm not fine. I won't be if he doesn't wake up." I say looking at Corey.
"Do you want me to stay?"
"No. No, I'll be fine. I've got Sam..."I say looking back at the smaller boy. Corey nods his head and walks out of the room.
"Sam....you may be gone here soon, 36 hours to be exact. I need you to wake up. I apologize for hurting you. When we met in band camp I knew we would be friends and look, I was right.
We went through everything together. Kansas, vine, YouTube, Girls, friendships, fights. I couldn't do it without you Sam. You and I have been by each others side.
Hurting you....I never planned to do that. I never wanted to purposely hurt you. I did though and I'm sorry. I caused you pain and your different now and your also laying on a hospital bed.
Sam.....I love you. Not as a friend. I - I care about you. I've realized while you've been in the hospital that I can't live without you. If you die ----- I wouldn't...." I say before I start crying, "I can't even imagine.....please Sam wake up. I need you.
Your the only person that understands me. My parents don't, my siblings don't.........that's why I need you in my life." I say before I squeeze his hand and lay my head on the bed, "I love you Sam and I don't want you to leave me."
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Welp this is it for today but don't worry I'll post two tomorrow....it'll get, um, intense I guess you can say.
I also wrote this at 7:18am, on a bus, heading to school and I'm so freaking tired I almost fell asleep while writing😂
But I'll see you all tomorrow! Have a great day
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Shattered
FanfikceCOMPLETED: First Book Sam Golbach is traumatized by the prank Sam Pepper and Colby pulled. Colby doesnt realize how troubled Sam is but once he notices Colby starts to beat him self up for it making his depression, that Sam has never known about, wo...
