Hear My Cry

Because of You

I smiled, like an actual smile.
My eyes shone bright.
My cheeks were sore from the constant tautness.
All because of you.

You just illuminated my life.
You were my sun.
I had forgotten what a colorful life looked light --
what it felt like.
But then I knew again, all because of you.

***

And though you're still here.
Sometimes that light goes away.
Sometimes I dont see the colors anymore.
All because of you.

There's times when my smile is lost in an abyss.
Times where my heart aches.
Times where I don't know what happiness is.
All because of you.

***

The constant back and forth of my emotions.
Like a faulty light bulb -- constantly flickering.
The wet face, then the dry-- and then wet again face.
All because of you.

The headaches and the heartaches.
The joyous smiles and the stomach of butterflies.
Feelings of worthlessness, feelings of hope.
All because of you.

***

Toxic, that you might be.
Feeling me with poison.
Killing my mind, my self-love.
Destroying my mental health.
Shit, destroying... me.

And here I am, still here.
Eroding like soft rock.
Not caring about my imminent demise.
All because of you.