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Forgiveness

I miss the concept of you that I've kept in my mind
My fascinations aren't realistic and will never happen.
For months and months
I thought I was caught up on you.
But really I've been running in circles
Trying to capture something that was never there in the first place.
I am my own mistake.
I guess you never really did anything wrong
You kept to yourself, you didn't know what you were doing.
It's been my own fault the whole time
And I know that.
I take responsibility for my actions, always.
You of all people know that.
I jumped to forgive you
But when will I forgive myself.