poisonous chocolate milk

Death

I don't want to die
But I don't want to survive
I just want to be left in the pits of hell with nothing to hide
My secrets are eating me alive
Give me nicotine and a bottle of pills
I'm going downhill but I don't mind

Is this a cry for help or a big fuck you to the world
I honestly can't tell anymore with all these souls disappearing
I can't breathe, can't shake the feeling
Of uncomfortable living
But I don't simply want to die

Just give me one more damn reason
Not to end it all
I'm about to fall
Deeper and deeper in agony
Oh it's just my stupid mind
I want to leave it all behind
But that will never ever happen
Not while I'm alive
So I guess
I just wanna die