poisonous chocolate milk

Life

I live in a world where me and my seven year old brother are taking chemo and slowly dying.
My body turns weaker and smaller everyday.
I live in a world where my best friends are getting sexually assaulted and there's nothing I can do.
I just sit and say I'm sorry because what else is there to do.
I live in a world where my depression has become human and is controlling my every move.
I don't even feel real.
I live in a world where I wake up everyday wishing that I had died in my sleep.
That would be so much easier than living.
What is the point of life when I'm surrounded by nothing but sadness and lack of hope.
I used to always hold onto the future but I can't see that anymore.
I'm going to snap one day and it's going to be a lot better than having to wake up.