After not really celebrating my birthday since i was alone, Sofie having to do all the homework that she usually never does, i sat down on my couch putting on the tv.
Sitting there made me think about how lonely i actually am.
I mean, i love Sofie allot but i mostly just see her in school, when i'm home it's just me.
Never before have i had anything against it, but right there and then, i couldn't stop a single tear from running down my cheek.
Wiping it away as fast as possible as i stand and walk to the kitchen to get some wine, perks of being a grown up (not really mentally though).
Once again i sit down on my couch and put the wine glass on the table, starting to feel a build of emotions inside that i have no idea what to do with.
Sadness. I'm alone.
Anger. I'm lonely.
I usually don't get like this, I'm a very calm person, but when i get like this all of a sudden there isn't much i can do about it.
Standing up and leaving the tv on i walk towards on of the rooms in the back of the house.
When i turn on the light i see training equipment and a punching bag.
Without changing first i walk towards the bag and start throwing punches here and there.
I can feel my blood boiling.
"God damn it! why am i so fucking mad!" I shout throwing one last punch that makes the bag fly across the room.
It makes me even more annoyed and the next thing i know i'm letting out a scream and closing my eyes, just to try and let it all out.
Feeling like a weight falls of my shoulders i open my eyes only to see all of the stuff in the room lying down on the floor and against the walls.
"What is wrong with me" i whisper.
Feeling exhausted i turn of the lights not bothering to fix anything.
Walking back to the tv with slow steps i turn it off and walk upstairs to my bedroom falling face first onto my pillows.
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Saturday morning i get ready to go to my weekend job, i help out in the hospital with medicine and sorting everything.
Walking in to my work space I'm greeted by my boss Angie who gives me a smile and walks of to help patients.
After about 4 hours or so i get an assignment to measure sleep sedatives for a patient going into surgery later that afternoon.
I get the right amount to keep them under for about 3 hours and pour it in a small container so you can easily pick it up in a syringe.
Putting that aside on the table i get back to labelling and organizing bottles of medicine, when I'm pretty much done i walk to the children's wing to visit my favorite patient
A little girl named Molly, she is 5 years old and has cancer, it has been getting better but she has to stay in the hospital.
"How are we doing today?" i ask as i walk in to her room.
"Alex!" she screams with joy, a big smile lighting up her face.
I hush her and sit beside her on the bed.
"Some kids are trying to sleep" i whisper and hug her tiny body.
She makes a face saying that she is sorry.
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1|Memories ♛ Bucky Barnes ✔️
Action❝Thank you.❞ He says. ❝For what?❞i ask with a smile on my face. ❝Not only for giving me a place to sleep, but for showing me who i am, i know it wasn't on purpose, but you keep doing it.❞ He whispers, still looking straight into my eyes. ❝Your welc...
