Let Go √ [ Rewrite ]

6

Warning:

• rape. But not detailed.

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Taehyung laid numbly and let out a short moan when Jeongguk pulled out.

Jeongguk breathed heavily and laid  behind Taehyung. He wrapped his arms around Taehyung's waist.

Taehyung sigh when heard Jeongguk's snore. He slowly put Jeongguk's hand away.

Taehyung stared at Jeongguk. He hate to admit but Jeongguk was really handsome. Like he was sculptured by god itself.

He look really calm and nice when he was asleep. Right now, he look like he was just a normal human being.

But Taehyung know, better than anyone. Jeongguk was nothing like a human. He was a demon. Maybe even more terrifying than a demon.

Taehyung slowly pulled the top drawer beside the bed open. He knew that Jeongguk always left a knife and gun in it. At He said it was for 'emergency'.

He grab the knife. His hand trembling harshly. He took a deep breath and slowly aim the knife right on top of Jeongguk. He closed his eyes and mentally count in his head.

' in the count of three. One..  two.. Three! '

The knife stopped right before the tip could touch Jeongguk's chest.

Taehyung let out a chocked sob and throw the knife away. He gripped his hair harshly.

He can't do it. He can't brought himself to kill Jeongguk. He had fail once again.

' Why? I want him dead? I hate him. Why can't I kill him? '

Taehyung hug his knees close to his chest. He buried his head in his hand.

Ha flinched when someone grab his knees tightly. And before he could react, the person pull him harshly. He end up under the man.

" Trying to kill me again, Tae? "

Jeongguk whispered. His hot breath fanning over Taehyung's ears.

Jeongguk look straight in Taehyung's eyes. As of he could stare straight through Taehyung's soul. Something flicker in his eyes for a short moment.

" Tell me why did you stop? You have the chance to kill me. Something that many people desire to have.. "

Jeongguk said with a smile. Taehyung try to look somewhere else. Jeongguk grab Taehyung's chin.

"Look at me when I'm talking.. "

Taehyung obeyed. Jeongguk let go of his chin and grab a gun.  He guided  Taehyung's hand to it. He put the gun right against his forehead.

Taehyung widen his eyes and started to trembled. Jeongguk press his finger against the trigger.

"Pull the trigger, tae.. This is what you want right? Go on.. "

Jeongguk said calmly. Taehyung started to cry. He let go of the gun.

" I- I can't.. "

Taehyung tried to stop himself from crying. He clawed his bandaged neck causing blood to spurt out. He can't breath. It hurt.

Taehyung let out a broken cry and desperately inhale and exhale. He felt like dying. He don't want to die. No not yet. Not now.

Suddenly, he felt someone embracing him. Jeongguk rubbed his back gently. He whispered sweet nothing in Taehyung's ears.

"Calm down sweetheart.. It's going to be okay.. I'm here.. Focus on my heartbeat okay?"

Taehyung obeyed. He closed his eyes and listen to Jeongguk's calm heartbeat. He calm down slowly. His breath getting even with Jeongguk's own breath.

Taehyung started to felt afraid. He don't want to make the same mistake.

He was starting to think that living with Jeongguk wasn't that bad at all. Maybe just maybe Jeongguk did love him.

Maybe he and Jeongguk had a chance to live happily. Maybe he can be happy again.

Although, deep down Taehyung realize that it was just a dream that was impossible to come true.