Reconstruct Me: A Jackson Avery Love Story (I Entered In The Wattys) :)

Chapter Eleven: What did i do?

Rowan's POV
I woke up in a pile of limbs on the living room floor of mine, Jo, and Alex's house with Lexie's head on my stomach and everyone else on some part of my body. I grab a pillow from next to me and slap all of my friends in the head. "Leave me alone Satan," Mark mumbles as he turns over "ahh i don't wanna die," Lex screams as she jolts up which causes everyone else to jolt up and me to laugh. Once everyone is fully awake Jo and Lexie make breakfast and everyone is being super nice to me and doing whatever i need. "Guys stop please, Jackson hasn't gotten a hold of me since the morning he dropped me off and that is all that's wrong, i acted like a child last night. We aren't dating and we aren't that close so it's fine," i say before getting up and putting my dishes in the sink. "Rowan you guys are like peanut butter and jelly, you have been stuck to each other since you met him so no things aren't ok," Jo replies following me out of the kitchen with Lexie right behind her. "I know but can we pretend like it all is because i don't want to fall apart, i have you guys and that's all i need," i say as i continue walking toward the stairs. "That's crap and you know it," Alex says joining us with Mark right next to him, "you and Avery hit it off Row," Mark adds. "You need to talk to him," Lexie says as we all make our way up the stairs. When we reach the bathroom door i stop, give them all a small smile, and close the door to take a shower. The only problem is i should know by now to lock the door because 5 seconds after i stepped foot into the shower all four of my friends were in the bathroom with me, and they were all talking at once. Instead of freaking out i just sat down on the shower floor and let the tears roll. I was trying to convince myself more than anyone else that Jackson not talking to me wasn't a big deal, but to be honest it was and it is. My friends are all right i am hurt and we were close. I spend 5 minutes on the floor of the shower just crying until i hear Lexie say something and everyone leaves, thinking I'm finally alone i sob harder. A few seconds later the shower door is opened and the water is shut off, i tilt my head up to see Lexie standing with a towel. I slowly get up and Lex wraps the towel around my body and then leads me out of the bathroom and into my bedroom which is surprisingly empty. She sits me down on the bed and picks me out some PJ pants and a t-shirt along with underwear, she leaves the room and lets me change. Two minutes later i hear a knock on the door and i let out a small come in and to my relief it's just Lexie again. She sits next to me and faces me, " take it from me it'll hurt more if you don't tell him how you feel. It took me forever to tell Mark i loved him and i ached inside every day. I cried myself to sleep every night and moped every day. I know you may not love Jackson yet but you need to talk to him about this and that's all I'm gonna say," she said before standing up and leaving. I spent an hour in my room just thinking about everything before i finally decided Lexie was right. I got dressed in this

And walked out of my bedroom door. I saw all of my friends in the living room just talking so i turned to them and nodded my head once with a smile. I knew they would understand what i meant so i didn't wait for a response as i made my way out the door. It was still very early because i live with surgeons and my internal clock is used to their schedule already. I knew they still had about an hour before they needed to be to the hospital so i made my way to my car to go to Jackson's place.

Jackson's POV
I was standing in my bedroom picking out a shirt to wear when i heard a knock on my front door, i didn't bother to put a shirt on and went to answer the door shirtless. When i opened the door i regretted it because Rowan was standing right in front of me with her mouth slightly open. If this was any other time i would tease her just to see her blush, but i didn't do that this time because i knew why she was here and i didn't want to hurt her more than i was already going to. I haven't talked to Rowan much since i dropped her back off at her house and i knew she was wondering why. Everything went perfect and i was beyond excited to get in touch with her again, i still took her to PT and took her home, but nothing else ever came up. The reason is because the day i dropped her of i received a call from my mother that she had someone for me to meet and she wanted me to meet them for dinner. When i got there my mom introduced me to Mara Keaton and said she wanted me to show her around Seattle, so after i dropped Rowan off every night i took Mara out and we ended up making out and sleeping together. I've felt so guilty about it because it happened like 3 days after my time with Rowan and i didn't know how to tell her. Now she is standing at my door and i don't know what to do

Rowan's POV
I'm caught in a trance for a few minutes just starring at Jackson's body which is apparently ok because he doesn't move for a few minutes either. When he finally breaks from his trance he lets me inside and leads me to sit with him on the couch. He makes small talk asking how I've been and how my friends are, i answer his questions for a bit growing irritated at how awkward this is. "Jackson just tell me what's going on, we aren't awkward like this we don't do awkward," i say after a few more minutes of the weird conversation. I hear him sigh as he places his head in his hands and all of the sudden it hits me like a ton of bricks. "What's her name," i whisper, which causes him to look at me in shock for a second. "Um...Mara. My mom introduced us the night after i dropped you off and asked me to show her around, so i did each night after your PT. One thing lead to another and we kissed and slept together a few times," he says as my heart breaks. "I understand we aren't dating but you could've told me. Now i look like an idiot for falling for someone who never wanted me," i say looking him dead in the eyes before running out the door.