Paths: A collection of Poems and Short Stories

Dear Ex Best Friend

Dear Ex Best Friend,

That seems funny to say

Who knew that this would happen one day

My oh my have things changed

I've started to realize things don't sound the same

Like without you I lost the ability to hear

Or maybe I lost the ability to feel sound

Or maybe I lost the ability to feel completely.

Dear Ex Best Friend,

Don't come back here again

This isn't meant to come off harshly

It has just taken me years to recover

And I still cry at the mention of your name

I still wonder what I did

That made me not good enough

Dear Ex Best Friend,

It hurt.

It still hurts.

I am but a girl who lacks the same kind of feelings

I lack the right kind of ability to trust someone

I am missing a piece of me that promised it would never leave

I feel that the day you looked at me like a stranger

My heart ripped into a thousand tiny pieces

With your broken promises written all over them.

Dear Ex Best Friend,

One day the red sea might part again

That day you'll realize your mistake

Because leaving me in the dust

Is not a mistake I'll let you make twice.

We were like two halves of a whole

Except one half got up and walked away

Leaving without a trace

Forcing the other half to wander lost and alone

No this poem doesn't end with me giving you forgiveness

Forgiveness are for those who show sorrow.

Dear Ex Best Friend,

No this is not my letter writing to you and forgiving you

Hell No.

This is my goodbye letter

My see you later.

Because at some point I got tired of being thought of last

I got tired of being shove aside

I got tired of being second fiddle

No this half, this half is making herself whole again

Without you.

Dear Ex Best Friend,

I'm different now.

Not the same.

But I like my life now.

I laugh with friends just the same.

This is my Goodbye.  My grief and anger,

Will never change to forgiveness

I don't think it'll heal properly

But it's getting there.

This, this is me scabbing

This is me moving on.

This is me saying goodbye.

Dear Ex Best Friend,

Adios. Ciao. Au revoir. Arrivederci. Goodbye.

Signed,

Someone who once loved you like no other

Someone who once cared

Someone who is broken

Someone who is healing

Someone who is tired of feeling less

Someone who despite it all still

Doesn't want to let go of you.

Someone who needs to let go of you.

Yours truly,

Your Ex Best Friend

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This is like a free verse mixed with a slam poem. I wanted to write about something that has weighed on me for the past couple years, hoping to relieve myself of it. As well as I feel the poem goes through the stages of grief and how we deal with loss, especially focusing on the fact that people feel loss and grief when a person steps out of their life. Enjoy.