Sometimes in life you find yourself
Staring at a blank screen at 3 am wondering
"How'd the hell I end up here?"
It's not necessarily a bad thing
Because bad things leave that sour taste in your mouth
What I feel is a neutral balance
My life hasn't found a balance in awhile
It's either up or down
Up or down
Up or down
Nothing stayed steady since my birth
And 18 years of change could make anyone hurt
Balance is a foreign word, much like a lot of things I don't hear anymore
I fear being happy
Because it has its time limit
It could always end in a matter of minutes
I've never had someone care about my well being
I'd be lying if I didn't say I was jealous of others co-existence
I only have myself to blame for my condition
Steady breathing
Silence stares
I can't take it anymore
I am stuck between a rock and my anxiety
I am trapped between my self worth and my sanity
It's either all or nothing
Cowards cower
And I guess your right
A coward I am, especially at night
My life needs both joy and despair
Destruction and reconstruction
Up and down
But I can't tell if I've found even ground
If I fear them both
And not being six feet underground
Balance is a challenge
An obstacle in my path
And I must face its wrath
All of one thing and none of the other
Has left me torn
On the cusp of no return
I am trapped inside this thing I hate
While surround by things I love
Maybe that's balance
Because I've found I can't have one
Without the other
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Paths: A collection of Poems and Short Stories
PoetryThese are poems and some short stories I have written over the years. Some are good, some are from a younger me. I have a deep love for poetry and I hope anybody who reads these poems and stories enjoys them as well.
