comparison ~k.v.~

chapter 10

(author's note: most chapters in comparison are in third-person/focused on kendall + her emotions. this chapter, while in third-person, will be focused on jared + his emotions. let us begin!)

jared's fingers dangle over his cracked phone screen. he swallows hard as he reads kendall's message.

"shitshitshitshit." he murmurs softly, trying not to wake up his older brother, trent. they share a room.

you have no idea how wrecked my self-esteem has been since then

jared bites his lip and grabs his hair. oh shit, i'm an awful person, he thinks.

he was new, out-of-state, wanted to make new friends, have a girlfriend. kendall was too sarcastic, occasionly cynical and just not his type: he liked girls with blond hair and brown eyes and tall legs. it didn't mean kendall wasn't pretty; she was. he just preferred what he preferred.

the guys didn't like kendall, for whatever reason. he didn't want to fight with them, so he sat silent when they gossiped (boys gossip. get over it) about the girls in their grade.

also, mckenna leslie was near there, and he didn't want mckenna leslie thinking he was taken. especially by kendall. she wasn't at their level of popularity.

jared groans. he is an awful person, goddamnit.

before he came to wtjhs, he wasn't concerned with things like popularity and looks. he was just a chorus boy in the theatre club (his old school had a lot of students and a lot of theatre nerds) with some good friends (most of them were girls. all the boys were older).

there are still posters with beauty and the beast jr., into the woods jr., and the wizard of oz on them, displaying his roles and triumphs and memories.

what happened?

he turns on his stomach, face stuffed into the pillow. how could he make it up to her?

jared gets out of bed and opens the door,

rubbing his eyes as light meets them. he goes to the bathroom and splashes water on his face. he can't make it up to her. you can't just do that to someone and simply apologize.

he exits and crawls back into his bed. he takes a short glance at his lock screen, which is a picture of the wtjhs cast of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat at the cast party. he was joseph, and the most popular girl in school, mckenna leslie, was mrs. potiphar. figures.

he unlocks the phone and begins typing a message.

jared.palmetto: i'm sorry. i'm a rly bad person for saying those things. i can't apologize enough. i am excruciatingly sorry for ruining ur self-esteem. u r a great person and not ugly or annoying or dumb or anything of the sorts.

he hits send.

he needs to write something.

jared goes into notes and begins him and kendall's story. but he changes some details, kendall is a sports star and her name is ashleigh. he is still a theatre fanatic, though, and his name is tyler.

writing always makes him feel better.

(hey this sucked but yeah. predictions? xoxoxo)