Overdose(yoonseok)

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Hoseok: Hey Yoongi:)

Yoongi: Hi Hoseok

Hoseok: What are you up to?

Yoongi: At the park

Hoseok: Would you like me to join you?

Yoongi: I just want some alone time right now, no offense.

Hoseok: Oh ok, are you ok?

Yoongi: Not one bit

not sent

Yoongi: I'm good.

Hoseok: Ok, well Jimin and I were wondering if you would like to hang out with us this weekend? 

Yoongi: I'll be free

Hoseok: Ok, well see you tomorrow:)

Yoongi: See you tomorrow.

Hoseok: Bye Yoongs:)

Yoongi: Yoongs???

Hoseok: That's your new nickname:)

Yoongi: Ok, well bye Hoseok.

STILL IN YOONGI'S PERSPECTIVE

               

                       I smiled as I set down my phone next to me. The nickname didn't really have any effort put into it, but nothing less, it still managed to bring a smile to my face.

                       It was about eight pm when I decided that I should head back home. Of course I really didn't want to, but I had no other place to live and no money, so this was all I had right now.

                      I opened the front door quickly and ran upstairs as fast as I could and when I made it in to my room, I locked the door as soon as I shut it.

                       I took out one of the only things that could cheer me up and that was my keyboard. I opened a note book which had pages full of lyrics that I have written over the past years and set it on the music stand and I began to sing the song that I wrote a couple of months after my brother died

so far away- Min Yoongi

It sucks when you don't have anything you want to do
I know it's pathetic to not have something
As common as a dream, I know
You said to do as I'm told,
That it would all fine when I go to university
I'm the asshole for believing those words
I live because I can't die
Give me some drinks
I want to get drunk today, please don't stop me
Anything will be fine
Alcohol is a luxury for a bum
But I can't stand it sober
Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here
Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here
Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here

So far away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away
Don't fall away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away

Dream may all of creation be with you
Till the end of your life
Dream wherever you are,
Will welcome you
Dream may your trials
End in full bloom
Dream though your beginnings might be humble,
May the end be prosperous

Yeah, fuck, I live because I can't die
Nothing is more miserable
And lonely than not having something you want to do
The only thing everyone around me says is to come to my senses
I try to take out my anger but the only one here
With me is me so what's the point of venting
Every morning, it's terrifying to open my eyes, to breathe

My friends and even my family are getting further away
As time goes by I'm becoming more impatient
The feeling of being on my own, I am on my own right now
I want everything to disappear
I want it to disappear like a mirage,
Want it to disappear,
I want my damn self to disappear
Like this, the world throws me away
In that moment I'm getting farther away from the sky
I'm falling

So far away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away
Don't fall away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away

Dream, may all of creation be with you
Till the end of your life
Dream, wherever you are,
Will welcome you
Dream, may your trials
End in full bloom
Dream, though your beginnings might be humble,
May the end be prosperous

So far away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away
Don't fall away if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away

Dream, may all of creation be with you
Till the end of your life
Dream, wherever you are,
Will welcome you
Dream. may your trials
End in full bloom
Dream, though your beginnings might be humble,
May the end be prosperous

May all of creation be with you
Till the end of your life
Wherever you are in life,
It will be generous
May your trials
End in full bloom
Though your beginnings might be humble,
May the end be prosperous

So far away
First love
So far away
First love
So far away
First love
So far away
First love

So far away
Don't fall away
So far away
Don't fall away

(A/N ) I didn't want the song to take up the whole chapter, but when you read it, you can see it ties in pretty with this story.     

             I slowly got up and walked over to my bed and I layed down and just stared at the ceiling. The song had so many feelings in it and it brings back so much, so I try to refrain from singing, but some it feels good to let out those held back feelings.

             I rolled on my side and looked over at my desk where I had a picture sitting there of my brother and I. We both looked so happy. It was on a summer day when my family and I went ot Seoul to visit some family members for a week.

              I bit my lip as I felt a tear fall down my face as I kept staring at it and I rolled on my back closing my eyes.

                What I would give to have my brother beside me right now.