MAGIC SHOP

81: goodbye

Jeon Jungkook,
2018-08-02

I can't believe this is gonna be the last written page of this ugly book.

2nd of August of 2018.

Goodbye to my useless life. Goodbye to my pathetic fate. Goodbye to circus. Goodbye to that woman. Goodbye to you... Cho Soojin.

I don't know why i'm so sure that you're going to find this diary one day, Soojin. But if you're reading this, i just wanna say thank you. So so so much, for everything you've done for me. You mean a lot to me, you do. You taught me a lot about this life. You're the best person i've ever met in my life.

I'm sorry i can't live happily as you told me to do. I'm sorry i can't watch you perform on that stage you've always been dreaming of. I'm sorry for scaring you that four years ago. I'm sorry for disappointing you. I'm sorry... if i made you cry.

Please don't cry over me too much. I'm fine. This is my decision. I want this. Don't be too sad. I'm going to protect you always. I'll always be by your side. So don't be sad.

Take care of yourself well. Don't drink when you're exhausted! You always forget. Remember not to eat too much ice cream in one week, i'm not going to remind you anymore. Don't train too much, that's useless. Don't stay up late playing phone, i won't tell you this anymore. And lastly, don't give up. Never. Don't even if people tell you to. Don't listen to them, you understand?

Goodbye, Cho Soojin. I love you. I love you a lot.