You're Only Happy When I'm Wasted. [All Time Low Fanfiction]

Night Life's Taking It's Toll.

"Oh my -- Alex!" I screamed as the bar bouncer kicked Alex off the front door. "AND STAY OUT!" He snarled mercilessly. Alex tried to stand up but failed, and was now laughing uncontrollably on the ground. I ran over to him and hugged him. "Alex, What the fuck are you doing here?" I could feel my lips trembling. Alex laughed and shoved me back. He reeked of alcohol. "Hey, Stella." he giggled like a child. "Hey. Now, come on." I tugged him up and he weakly followed, swaying and laughing. "We're going ho --"

My voice died down the moment he crashed his lips with mine. I froze as the taste of his lips crept towards me. It sent a light jump to my heart and a light feeling towards my brain. I didn't want to pull back, but a bitter thought swept through my mind.

Alex wouldn't kiss me if he's drunk.

I pushed him away, but he quickly pushed himself forward and met my lips once again. This time, he gripped my arm and strapped me on the bar's wall, which was a few centimeters away. People passed and stared at us in shock, but Alex ignored them.

I forced my eyes close. I know I was deeply in love with Alex, but kissing me only when he's drunk was what's hurting me.

He doesn't even like me.

I took deep breaths and tried to stay calm. I bit his lip hard and he winced in pain. I took this as a chance and shoved him back. His eyes snapped open and he blinked dumbfoundedly as he fell to the ground. "What the fuck, Alex?" I snapped, trying to hide the crack in my voice. "What's wrong with you!?"

The tears were starting to get back up again. God, I feel so pathetic. I always feel so used and I always let it pass. Why can't I just accept the fact that the people I love won't feel the same for me? Why am I even expecting for too much? Alex promised he'll help me. He didn't promise he'll love me. I was the one hoping on my own. And now here I am, hurt and hopeless. I'm so pathetic. I shouldn't have asked Alex to help me. I shouldn't have let my guard down for him.

I shouldn't have loved Alex.

That's right. I shouldn't have loved Alex. I shouldn't have loved Alex. I shouldn't ha--"

"GOD. HOW STUPID CAN YOU GET, STELLA!?"

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A/N: 1 more chapter before the finale. :'( I just want to let you guys know that I'm really thankful for your support, votes and comments. Spread this fic and the All Time Low love to your loved ones! ;*

-Rae