If I Get My Way || Alerrie

Chapter 12

I woke up without opening my eyes and remembered my current situation, I slept with him last night. I enjoyed it and he also did, I smiled at the memories not believing what happened. Maybe he did like me after all, maybe Jade was right, and I could change the fact that he loved Harper. I was afraid to open my eyes, what should I say? How was I supposed to act? "Come on Pez, you can do this, just tell him how you feel exactly as you had planned yesterday" I turned around to be facing him and after a few more breaths I opened my eyes thinking he was going to be in front of him, but he wasn't. All I saw was a little note instead of him.

I took it and read it "I'm really sorry about what happened yesterday P, it was a mistake and I hope we can forget it and don't talk about it". I felt lots of emotions combined on me, and I didn't know what to do, I was sad but maybe I was angrier. I didn't get him; he was the one who told me I wanted it as much as he did, then he asked me to make him forget about Harper, I try to do it, was it my fault, wasn't I good enough? I didn't get I thought we both have a great night, he looked as if he had enjoyed it, but then I wake up and find out he thought what happened the night before which was one of the best things that ever happened to me, wasn't more than a mistake for him a mistake he wanted to forget and not talk about it again. I remembered he was drunk and hurt for what happened with Harper, what if he said those things to get laid with me and in some way get revenge of Harper, I was convinced that was the reason, I felt dirty and used, so I got up and took a shower, why I was stupid enough to play his games? After about an hour crying in the shower I got out and went down to have some breakfast, I made some eggs and saw my messages, Ellie stayed the night with Lucy and Lydia, at least now I didn't have to worried about her seeing us or hearing us, for what I remembered we were loud. I finished my breakfast and went to watch some TV in my room, on the way I stopped and saw me in the mirror. I looked at myself and saw my puffy and red eyes, I felt betrayed and stupid, I should have stopped him, I knew I wouldn't be able to control myself if he didn't, yet I went with it and ended up sleeping with him. My cell phone started to ring, I went to get it thinking it would be my mom or El. When I looked at the screen I saw his name all my anger came back to me and I pressed the red button

-Screw you- I said and left my cell phone in the night table before I turned the TV on and tried to clear my mind about everything, that worked for about a minute until it started to ring again, I looked at it and saw his name

-Don't you get I don't want to talk you?- I yelled at my phone and pressed the red button again. A few seconds after messages started to appear on my screen, of course, they were from him

"Are you okay?"

"I'm sorry for what happened last night"

"Are you angry?"

"Princess please answer me"

I opened the messages but didn't answer them, I felt too weak and that in any moment I would break down, I put play to the movie again and kept watching it, after a few minutes I fall asleep. Even in my dreams, I kept remembering him, the way he touched me and how good he felt.

I was sleeping when I felt something in my cheek I moved my head but still felt it, I opened my eyes and jumped a little while I screamed, I didn't expect to see him next to me, sitting on my bed

-Oh my god, what the fuck Alex?- My heart beat faster than ever, I was sure I could have a heart attack right now

-You scared the hell out of me, I'm sure I have diabetes because of you now- he laughed

-How did you get in?- I took deep breaths to calm my heartbeat

-Well, I found Ellie at the door she was leaving to buy some food and she let me in- that little traitor, the scare happened and I remembered everything

-What are you doing here though? I don't remember inviting you- I sounded rude but I didn't care, I didn't want to see him and a lot less I wanted to talk to him

-I tried to call you a hundred times but you didn't answer my calls or my messages, what's wrong? Is it because of what happened yesterday? I told you I'm really sorry I shouldn't have done it, but you did it too, it was our mistake, can we just pretend it never happened?- I thought I was angry before but after he said those words I couldn't control myself and ended up slapping him

-You're such a jerk, Alex, get out- he grabbed his cheek with his hand and sobbed it

-What's wrong with you Perrie? I apologized-

-I don't want to see you, Alex, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE- I got up and started to push him to the door

-Perrie, calm down- I kept pushing him and we started to get closer to the door

-No, until you leave my house, I don't want to see you ever again, you're such a jerk. Are you happy with your revenge now?- I said and he opened his eyes

-What are you talking about?- he stopped walking towards and stood in the same spot even if I was pushing him

-Don't play fool Alex, I know why you slept with me, you wanted to take revenge over Harper, didn't you? She slept with your friend and you slept with me, great job- he grabbed my wrists and stop me from pushing him

-Perrie, is that why you think I slept with you?- he looked at me and I could see something different in him, but didn't managed to know what

-Yes, now go- I tried to push him again but it was useless

-It wasn't Perrie, and anyway, why are you acting so crazy about this?- I was really angry but because of something I stop trying to push him away and I looked at him denying, it was now or never. I could tell him now and then leave his life for good

-You don't have an idea, do you?- I looked at him and smiled sadly he looked at me confused and denied with his head

-No princess- I stood a step back from him and looked down

-All the things they said- I whispered and he was, even more, confuse by now

-P what are you talking about?-

-Your teammates, the girls, even that doctor- I smiled remembering that day, I fell on him

-Princess, I'm not getting you- he put his hand above my chin and made me looked at him

-I like you, Alex-

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So my summer vacations are done 😭 and I won't be able to update as much as I do now but I'll try my best. I don't know how I'll do it because I wrote Happier on vacations too but I want to update at least three times a week. Anyway enjoy this chapter!

What do you think will happen now?