If I Get My Way || Alerrie

Chapter 17

-Because now I know that I love her- I knew that now, but it was too late. I admit it I'm in love with her, I need her, but she's gone now. As they say you only know what you've got till it's gone, that was what happened to me, I had her by my side for months, but I wasn't brave enough to admit I fell more than what I said for her

-For what you told me, it's a little late for that, isn't it?- Christian looked at me and I nodded accepting my mistake

-It is- I stood quiet for a moment thinking how things could be different now if Harper hadn't shown up today

-I was going to do it today Chris, I was going to do it after the show- tears starting to roll down my eyes and he hugged me

-I know Alex, my mom told me-

-Funny isn't it? I was supposed to be by her side now, but instead I'm crying, and I can't stop thinking about her, if you had seen her eyes, her look, she looked destroyed Chris, she loved me, and I let her down. I promised not to hurt her- my chest hurt, I hated myself for hurting her
-It'll be alright bro. Everything will fix but for now you should have some rest, go to sleep, you'll feel better tomorrow- he got up and gave me his hand to help me, I nodded and went directly to my room, as soon as my head touch the pillow I fell asleep

Perrie's POV

Myles and I went to a bar, I started to drink thinking about the image of Alex and Harper kissing, that little bitch made sure I saw them before kissing him, she knew he wouldn't stop

-Pez you should stop drinking you have a concert tomorrow- he took my glass of and I gave him a bad look

-Don't start Myles- I took my glass back. After an hour later, I was drunk as so was he, we were talking and laughing about everything when suddenly we stood quiet and stared at each other, there was some kind of tension between us, I didn't feel anything towards him and maybe it was the alcohol in my body or my spite for Alex, but I wanted to kiss him and so I did. He kissed me back and it soon came a more intense one, his hands rounded my waist and went down to my butt

-Do you want to get of here?- he whispered, and I nodded

The next morning, I woke up at 7 am in a hotel bed next to him and guilty took over me, I sighed trying to understand why I slept with him, I didn't regret it but I knew what I did wasn't right, fear took over me and I got up, get dressed up and got out of the room leaving him sleeping in bed, I remembered the time I woke up alone in my bed thinking Alex would be there and felt like a terrible person but I wasn't brave enough to be next to him when he woke up. I got out of the hotel and got into a cab asking him to take me to where the tour bus was, today we were leaving to Scotland and my head wasn't prepared to a concert, I was hungover and it hurt too much

Luckily for me when I got there the girls were still sleeping which meant I wouldn't have to explain where and with who I spend the night, I change to my pajamas and laid down in my bed before falling asleep feeling confused about what I did last night.

Jesy woke me up at 10 am letting me know we were leaving now, and it was time to had breakfast before we did, I got up and put some pants on to have breakfast, when I got out of the bus all were eating in the table, including him. We did eye contact for a second but as soon as I realized it I walked towards the other way and grabbed an apple, Jade came closer to me and I try to act normal

-Good morning Jade-

-Hey P, how did you sleep?- she grabbed a banana and walk next to me

-Good, why?- I was starting to get nervous, what if she saw me arriving in the morning?

-Just wondering, I woke up around 3 am to go to the bathroom and you weren't on the bus, everything okay?- she knew something was wrong, she was my best friend and she knew me better than anyone, I couldn't lie to her, I wasn't able to,
even if I try but still I did

-Yes, I just needed some air, you know all that happened with Alex- she stared at me examining my face trying to find that one detail that told her I was lying

-I see, well if you need to talk I'm here- she gave me a brief hug and walked away I try to keep walking away from everyone else but when I took my first step I saw him in front of me, I instantly got nervous

-I missed you in the morning- he got closer to me, but I step back

-I'm sorry, I needed to come back before the girls woke up- he nodded and kept getting closer, when he was close enough, he grabbed me by the waist and pull me closer to him

-Don't run away P, I don't bite, well unless you want me to- he left a little bite in my neck and I couldn't stop myself from letting a little moan out

-Don't do that, someone can see us- I tried to go away but his grip was tight

-You don't have to run away Perrie, I know you want this as much as I do- he kissed the border of my lips and I sighed in frustration, he laughed letting me go

-No one can see us in that room- he looked at one door near us and offered me his hand

-Your choice Perrie- I took his hand and we got into the room

Alex's POV

I woke up without wanting to get up. Perrie was gone and I wasn't able to train yet, my life was a mess. I grabbed my cell phone and opened twitter I scrolled down my timeline and saw a photo that got my attention, it was Perrie with one of the Rak-su guys in a bar, they were very close for me and before I knew I was feeling nothing else but jealous. I looked for more of those pictures and saw one of them leaving the bar holding hands, I wanted to call Perrie and claimed her about this, but if I felt this about a picture of her holding hands with another guy I couldn't imagine what she felt when she saw me kissing Harper so I didn't, a knock was heard and then my brother's voice

-Alex, you have a visit- he sounded afraid

-A visit?- I got up from my bed and opened my door to saw my brother at my door

-Harper is here, she wants to talk to you- he whispered afraid of my reaction

-Tell her to go- I tried to remain calm but only the thought that because of her Perrie was gone because of her made me want to do thing to her that I shouldn't

-I did, but she refuses to, not until you talk to her- I sighed and nodded, got out of my room and went downstairs

-What do you want?- I asked her and she looked surprised by the tone of my voice

-Alex calm down, I'm here to give us a last chance. I promise I won't hurt you again, I now know you're the only one that I want- I had to give all of me to not hurt her

-Are you crazy?- I laughed and denied

-I don't want to be with you Harper, I'm finally over you-

-That's not true, you told me yesterday- I interrupted before she could continue

-Yesterday you help me to realize that the only one I really love and the only one I want to be with is Perrie-

-Really? Where's she then Alex?- I was starting to get really furious, she knew Perrie went away because of her

-Stop Harper-

-She left you, she couldn't handle a little and inoffensive kiss, could she? Poor dreamer, she really thought you could get over me- she was making laughed of her and I wouldn't let her

-That poor dreamer as you call her  was right I'm over you-

-Little late, don't you think Alex?- I couldn't handle her anymore

-Get out Harper, leave and don't you ever return- she shrugged and started walking to the door
-You ended up alone Alex- were her words before she closed the door and disappear

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