If I Get My Way || Alerrie

Chapter 16

-Do you love me?- Perrie asked afraid she knew the answer, he looked at her and opened his mouth, but nothing came out of it

-I love you, Alex, and as I told you I'm not afraid of saying it but if you don't feel the same and you're not even sure if you want to be with me then I don't see the point to keep going, so I'm asking you one last time, do you love me?- Alex looked at her, he didn't want to let her go but he didn't want to lie to her, so he didn't say anything. Perrie understood his silence and nodded

-Go, Alex, we're done here- she whispered broken, but he refused to go

-Perrie, please don't do this to us- Perrie laughed sarcastically and denied

-There's no us, Alex, you made that very clear- she waited a few seconds for him to go but he didn't

-Fine, if you're not leaving I'm- she started walking but Alex's word stopped her

-You promise me not to leave princess- his voice was cut, and she could feel in how much pain he was, that only made her worst.

-Yeah, but you promise not to hurt me- she remembered all she had been through, all her life she put others before, but for the first time she put herself first and didn't look back, she knew if she did she wouldn't be able to turn back again so she walked away from him leaving not only him but also her, heartbroken

Perrie's POV

It took all of me not to turn back, I wouldn't have been able to walk away if I saw him again. So, I kept looking down and walking as far as possible from him, my chest hurt, and I felt my heart could stop beating in any second, my legs kept getting weaker and I had more troubles seeing because of the tears with every step I took.I thought I have him, for a moment I really thought we could be happy, but once again I ended up hurt. All I wanted to do was to collapse there, or run away and just be apart from everything or anyone that reminded me of him, I didn't care anymore, I wanted to stop thinking about him but just trying felt useless. I was so busy thinking about Alex that I didn't saw him until I hit him

-I'm sorry- I managed to say and looked up seeing him, for the first time I saw how much they looked alike and that surprised me a little

-Oh my god, Perrie are you okay?- I think he saw my eyes and instantly realized I was crying

-No, but I really want to be- the air wasn't enough for me, his arms pull me closer to him and at first, I was frizzed but when I felt his warm I couldn't stop myself from crying in his shoulder letting all go

-What happened?- after a few minutes crying and sobbing in his arms he grabbed my chin and made me look at him

-I really thought he wanted me, I thought he liked me- he knew what I was talking about and hugged me again

-I'm so sorry P- he whispered in my ear and his voice gave me chills

-Can we get out of here please?- I needed to run away even for only a few hours, I needed to forget him and reminded how I used to live before him

-Where?- he grabbed my hand and I squished it

-Just take me far from here-

-Your wish is my command- Myles smiled and took my other hand before getting me out of there

Alex's POV

The moment I saw her leave I knew it was all over, but most important I knew exactly what I felt. There was nothing for me there, so I did what she asked me to do and left, I drove all the way to Liverpool not thinking about anything more than her face when she saw me and Harper kissing, the way she cried because of me, how much was her pain that she didn't even let me touch her or how she must be by now. I was angry she didn't care about her promise but at the same time I knew she was completely right I didn't have the right to claim she broke her promise by leaving because I broke mine first, I hurt her and that was the only thing she asked me not to do. I failed her, and I failed myself but now it was too late to realize that. After about four hours I arrived at my house and saw my brother was there

-What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be with your new girlfriend?- he raised his brows and I couldn't stop my tears

-Don't tell me she said no- he came closer and hugged me, I hold on to him knowing why it hurt so much

-It's over- I whispered and sat on the couch

-What do you mean?- Christian asked confused and I looked at him trying to find the force to talk and tell him what a stupid mistake I did

-She left Chris- I whispered and he looked at me confused

-I'm not getting what happened?- I knew the moment I told him he was going to blame it on me and he wouldn't be wrong

-She saw me kissing Harper, and she also heard when I told H I wasn't sure if I wanted to be with her- what I did sound even more stupid when I said it that when I thought of it. Christian looked at me not believing what I just said

-I'm not getting any of this why did you kiss Harper?-

-I don't know, she kissed me, and I couldn't stop her- I tried to defend myself but it was useless I knew that what I did was undefended

-Then if you weren't sure to be with Perrie why you are acting and crying like this?- he looked at me and I knew the answer but was afraid of saying it

-Because now I know that I love her-

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Hereeeee, I'm sorry I wasn't able to write this before, but shcool is jsut too much rigth now, anyway I hope you like this, sorry if it's short one ❤️