It's Complicated

09 ~ That...that is irrelevent

Chapter 9 ~ That... that is irrelevant

"Okay, prove me wrong then. How many girlfriends have you had?" I say and he scoffs.

"I don't have these so called "girlfriends" I have flings. Everything gets too complicated when feelings and shit get involved so I would rather not have strings."

"Why does that not surprise me?"

"How my boyfriends have you had kitten?" He inquires, scooting closer to me.

"That...that is irrelevant, we were talking about your love life, not mine," I point out, trying to escape the question.

"Okay, so the answer is none. Am I correct?" He smirked deviously. I could feel the heat crawl up my neck and into me cheeks and my eyes looked down at the floorboards.

"Awe kitten am I making you nervous?"

"No!" I say a little to quickly and scramble to my feet.

"So I do?"

"No, you don't!" I lie again, trying to convince myself and him that he doesn't. Just as I'm about to escape the dreaded question, I trip over one of the chairs sitting underneath my island. I start to fall backwards, nearly hitting my head on the counter top if Asher hadn't caught me first. Our eyes lock and we stayed there for a few seconds, me in his arms and both of us staring at each other. He broke the eye contact first, setting me back on my feet as we both laughed nervously.

"I should probably go-"

"You should probably go-" we both say at the same time.

"Yeah, I should just leave, see you around kitten," he said getting up and grabbing his keys and looking back at me. He waves and I shyly wave back and he walks out the front door. I don't really know why I felt so weird around him all the sudden. I guess before he left he was just a lot of people, and his reputation isn't that great.

But I have a feeling that he's well, different. I shook the thought out of my head and walked up the stairs towards Logan's room. I tiptoed down the hallway and peaked through the doorway. He was knocked out cold onto his bed. I closed the door cautiously and walked down the hallway to my bedroom and closed the door.

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I woke up to the sun shining into my eyes from my window. I was sprawled across the floor, the clothes that I was wearing yesterday still clinging onto my body. I groaned as I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I slowly stood up, stretching and walked towards the door to go to the bathroom. I walked down the hallway, meeting my brother in the middle.

"Jeez Halston, you look like you got hit by a train!"

"Thanks Lo, really appreciate your compliment, now SCOOT!" I shooed him away and went into the bathroom and attempted to try to make myself look less like the Loch Ness monster. After twenty minutes of yanking my rats nest of a hairstyle I finally looked semi-presentable, I looked at my phone and realized I only had ten minutes until we had to leave. I sprinted into my room and threw on a pair of ripped jeans, a grey windbreaker, and my black converse and rushed downstairs.

"LO, FIVE MINUTES!" I shouted up the stairs then brewed some coffee and grabbed my bag. Lo jumped down the stairs and grabbed his and went out to the car and drove to school. Once we got there he got out and joined his friends walking inside. I deeply inhaled then opened my door to reveal Peyton waiting for me by the entrance. I slowly made my way over to them and as I got there she shot me a worried look.

"What happened Hal, you look like shit,"

"Thanks Pey, love your compliment," I said sarcastically as we walked inside and to my locker.

"For your information, a lot happened but I don't really want to get into it,"I let my eyes close shut as I spin the combination in and Pae leaned on the locker next to me. Just as she was about to say something J came up next to me and closed my locker shut, actually more like slammed my locker shut.

"Why were you with Asher Black last night?" I glanced between them as Peyton's jaw fell open. What? How in the hell did he know I was with him?

"I wasn't I-" I started it but then Logan jogged up to us and attempted to pull me aside.

"Woah Logan what happened to you?" Pey asked, alarmed at how bluish purple his eye was but Jillian's expression stayed blank as he stared at me.

"Um things," Lo mumbled as he turned to me, "I need to talk to you." He pulled me aside, which gave me a really uncomfortable feeling.

"What is it Lo?"

"It's mom, they found her passed out on the porch and she's in the hospital," he whispered, on the verge of tears.

"How did you find out?"

"The hospital called the home phone, then dad's and he tried texting you, but you didn't answer so he texted me."

"That asshole, doesn't even bother when his wife is in the hospital." I start to walk away from him.

"Hal come back," He said, grabbing me back to him.

"It's going to be okay, we'll get through this," he said then, pulling me into a hug as tears start to sting my eyes.

"Let's just go make sure she is okay, okay?" he pulled me towards the car and I shook my head.

"No you need to stay here, I'll go," I said and kissed his forehead and he went inside. I stood there for a moment, frozen. I didn't realize that I was shaking until I looked down at my hands and they were trembling. Then the air started to feel thick and it was like it was getting caught in my throat and I couldn't breathe. I clutched my chest and fell to my knees, grasping for air. The world started to spin and my breathing hardened and I saw someone come up to me, then everything went black.

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Pretty deep chapter yeah, well just a disclaimer I have only had a panic attack once and all panic attacks are different and mine was less critical so I'm not 100% sure if this is accurate but yeah. Sorry I'm rambling so I hope you like this chapter and enjoy!