soft || namjoon

07

taehyung

'why can't you just accept the fact that ryejin is mine? as long as i know, she's not planning on liking you.'

makes sense..

what namjoon said made perfect sense.

ryejin doesn't like me like that.

and i guess she never will.

"taehyung! are you following?"

"no, mama bea- i mean, mother, i'm sorry, what is it again?"

"i'm planning on sending you to a foreign school in New York. it's for the best."

"okay, mother."

you might think i really wanted this, but no. i'm destined to follow what my mother orders me to. i live in her household, she gave birth to me, she bought me everything i needed and wanted. what is something i can fight back with? nothing.
since papa bear left, she changed.

well, basically this life is hers, not mine.

"say goodbye to your friends you'll be leaving in a week. i'm doing this for you, son." she smiled, evilness marked visibly on her face.

for me? haha, funny.

i scoffed, "for me?" i fought my greatest fear and spoke against her, "do you think i like this? how you force decisions into me? how you basically control my own life? saying you own this household? i'd rather live in trash than be this way. i deserve my own life too." a single tear slid down my face.

"are you done, son? pack your items. we'll leave tomorrow, does your friends influence you to be like that? poor them, can't reach our levels so they just drag us down." she just turned away and walked, heels clacking with every step she took.

"i'm not leaving."

she looked back at me, "what did you just said?"

"i'm not leaving, i'm sick of you pouring your traumas into me. i'm moving to papa bear's, and no, you cannot stop me. i don't ever wanna identify as your son. i can't be treated like this, i REFUSE to be treated like this."

she was speechless. i know she was traumatized by my dad leaving us and i was being an asshole but i can't do this, it's not an excuse to treat your son as a pet.

she walked away but i can still see the dominance in her, i hate this. i fucking hate this. i threw her over-priced ugly vase down the floor, spilling my anger on the thing.

fucking hell.

-

tae:
goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie,
i love you|

goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie,
i love y|

goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie,
i lov|

goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie,
i lo|

goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie|

tae:
goodbye, ryejinie. i wish
you luck with namjoonie!

jinie:
what? why are you so weird
lol are u leaving or smth?

tae:
:)

jinie:
hey, dont be that way.

tae:
fall apart twice a day?

jinie:
im serious, dont joke. are
you leaving???? :'-(

tae:
it's for the best, i guess.
my mom told me so,
well, she's always 'right'
sooooo yeah.

jinie:
so u really try'na leave
us huh?

tae:
i can sense your tears.
dont cry, ill be back.

jinie:
who said im crying???
lol u feel way too good
about yourself???????
im not gonna miss u lol

tae:
if that's so, okay then,
ill text you tomorrow.

jinie:
dont leave. :( the truth is
im crying and i will miss
you and school is now
incomplete without u.
im legit crying idk why,
its because of you!!!!!!!!
i hate you but i wish u
find a really hot gf there
and also find someone
like me so you will feel
less lonely. i know i make
you happy. ;)

jinie:
wait wrong expression i meant ":)"

tae:
fuck, i love you.
message not sent!

tae:
yeah, sure. let's talk more.

~
namjoon

"it'll be fine, he said that he'll come back, and i'm pretty sure he'll text us all the time! he likes being annoying, you know him. stop crying now, taehyung will be sad seeing you like this." i tried consoling ryejin but..

"no."

"why not? do you like taehyung that much?"

"of course!"

"what?"

"who doesn't like that monkey?"

"makes sense." i muttered under my breath.

"just feed me, i'm hungry." she rubbed her tummy in a cute way.

i smiled and stood up, ryejin looked at me, i knew that food is the answer.

"let's eat, then."

i offered my hand which she gladly accepted and ran to the 1st floor cafeteria, a.k.a. the 'paradise'.