Falling For Kian

In his arms

Kian and I were sitting on the sofa. He held me tight, I buried my face into chest. He kissed my forehead. Something didn't feel right. He looked stressed, concerned.
"What's wrong?" I asked. He stared at me, deep into my eyes.
" I didn't know - I should if known!" he cried.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"The nurse told me -"
" Told you what" I asked.
" You nearly died. You cut yourself so deep that you fainted with blood loss. You’re on anti-depressants and you’re supposed to be having regular meeting with a therapist." he cried.
"So what if I'm messed up?" I yelled.
My heart beat so hard. I could hear it. I tried to run but my legs were so weak that I fell after a few steps. Tears were streaming down my face I felt angry. Not at Kian but at myself. He sat on the floor and reached out to me.
"I hate myself" I cried.
" Don't say that please Iris" Kian cried.
Tears ran down Kians face.
“I love you Iris" he cried.
"My whole life is a grey cloud, I don't deserve you or anyone. I deserve to be dead" I screamed.
Kian wrapped his arms around me so tight. I closed my eyes.
" I'm sorry Kian" I whispered.
" Iris I love you and I want to be by your side forever. Nobody has ever made me feel the way you make me do." he whispered.
"Ir-"
I leaned in and kissed him. Tears were still streaming down are faces.
“Kian I love you" I whispered.
He didn't reply he didn't need to, he had proven his love for me.
He wiped my tears with his hand.
“No more secrets" he whispered before he kissed me again. We lay on the floor. We said nothing - I just felt safe in his arms.