broken hearts (johnny cade x reader)

chapter seven: empathy & sympathy.

chapter seven: empathy & sympathy.

•saturday: 4:36 am•

*your pov*

I had a really bad dream. I woke up all sweaty and I felt my heart beating intensely. I tried shutting my eyes but I just couldn't go back to sleep. I looked at the alarm clock, "4:38 am." I got up out of bed feeling a little light headed. I walked out of my room and headed downstairs but before I took one step down the stairs, I heard sobs. I walked down the hall and opened Tom's room, he was asleep. Then I opened mom's, she was asleep as well. I then walked to Johnny's room and knocked it while opening it. "Johnny?" I whispered softly. I look at Johnny and saw his hands in his face. "Y/n?" He asked looking up. I stared at his sparkling eyes filled with sorrow. "What's wrong?" I asked in a low voice. "Nothing, i'm ok. Go back to sleep." He said crying more. I walked over the his bed and sat on the edge of it. Lightly brushing his hair out of his face I ask, "Hey.. hey, you can tell me anything, don't cry please." I said starting to feel my heart ache. My eyes started burning up a little. I really didn't like seeing Johnny cry. "Y/n, really i'm fine, get your sleep.." He said. "Well I was about to head outside because I had a bad dream and I can't go back to sleep, but I heard you crying so I wanted to check on you." I replied. "You ok?" He asked softly. "Yeah i'm fine. But please tell me what's wrong with you." I said. "I just.. I..I wish my parents loved me man. Life wouldn't be so..hard. They fight all the time. They're always so drunk. Most of the time my dad hits me and my mom tells me to get out and I just can't take it anymore. Sometime I talk about killing myself to Pony. The past 16 years have been so hard for me. I will literally get startled by the most quietest thing. I just wish my folks loved me. That's all." He explained. After I heard that Johnny had thoughts of killing himself I started bawling listening to each word he was saying. He stopped crying a bit and stared at me with sympathy. "Whats wrong y/n?" He asked. "I'm so sorry Johnny, y-you don't deserve that at all. You're such a sweet and innocent person and you deserve nothing but happiness and lots of love. I'm s-sorry you have to go through something like that. This world is such a h-horrible place. But we can't do anything about that, we need to be the ones shining in the d-darkness." I said in between sobs. There was some silence until Johnny broke it. "That's the most beautiful thing i've ever heard before y/n. Thank you so much for being here for me. Hopefully there's some good in the world. And we should be the light. I don't wanna lose you. Ever." He said crying again. He sat up and sat next to me and I hugged him. He squeezed me even tighter. "O-ok Johnny.. you're.. squeezing me." I said. "Oh i'm sorry." He chuckled. I giggled. I could see his face turning red in the darkness. Adorable. "You should get your rest." I said. "I don't know if I can go back to sleep man, but you should definitely get your sleep." He replied. I didn't say anything. We just stared at each other for a long time. My breathing stopped for a little and he stared into my eyes. Brushing my cheeks with his hand he says, "You're so pret.." I heard Johnny whisper under his breath while looking down. But I couldn't hear all of it. Wait. Did he say I was.. pretty? "What?" I asked giggling. "Nothing." He said scratching his neck. We both looked down for a little, embarrassed. "Ok go to sleep now." Johnny said. He looked sad. He laid back down while I was still sitting on the edge. He stared at the ceiling. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing. Nothing." He said still looking at the ceiling. I got up and laid down next to him. I hugged him burying my head in the chest inhaling his grassy scent. It smelled like nature. I looked up at him while still hugging him. "You're gonna be ok Johnny. I promise." I whispered. He looked into my eyes. "I hope." He said. "You will." I replied softly looking up at him. I put my head back into his chest, hugging him. I felt him playing with my long h/c hair and before I knew I passed out.

*johnny's pov*

•7:23 am•
I woke up and saw y/n snuggling with me. She looked peaceful and innocent. She had the most beautiful long eyelashes and beautiful h/c hair. She was perfect. She moved a little and groaned but she didn't wake up. I stared at her for a while. I don't know what i'd do if I didn't meet her. She was my everything and only thing. And of course the gang, but she's somethin else man. I stared at her and then put my head on her head and fell back to sleep inhaling her soft vanilla scent. I love her.

*your pov*

I woke up to a yummy smell. I inhaled the scent of bacon, omelet, and coffee. I open my eyes and rub them. I was still laying with Johnny, my head resting on his chest and his arms wrapped around me. I looked up and saw his face. He was sleeping like a baby. Im glad, he deserved some rest in a comfortable place. I kissed his scar and he opened his eyes, blinking them a few times. "Good morning." I smiled tiredly. "..Morning." He smiled back, messing my hair up a bit. "Yum what's that smell?" Johnny said sitting up and I sat up with him. "My mom made some good ass breakfast today." I said. "Good because i'm hungry." He groaned. "Dude what do you mean? We ate so much yesterday." I giggled. "Yeah I mean.. I'm fat." He smirked. "Shut up." I smiled. He hugged me and we were in that position for about 5 minutes until my mom came barging in. "Hey Joh-" She said. "Oh sorry am I interrupting y'all?" Mom asked. "No, you're fine." I smiled nervously. I'm pretty sure mom was mad at me for sleeping with a boy but we didn't do anything so i'm good. "Well.. food's ready." She smiled back. We both got up and Johnny walked out, me right behind him. "Y/n wait." She pulled my arm. "What?" I asked. "Did you guys-" She asked but I cut her off. "NO!! Never he was just upset about something and I was trying to comfort him and we just fell asleep." I said reassuringly. "Oh ok, go eat now." She winked. "Oh please." I scoffed

*after breakfast*

I finished my breakfast and Johnny kept telling me how much he loved the food. What a doll. I cleaned all the dishes while Johnny went to smoke a weed outside.

I turned off the sink and Johnny walked in. "Hey Johnny, we're gonna go shopping in a bit." I smiled. "Okay." He smiled back. He went to sit on the stool at the island. "Hey y/n? ....Have you ever had a-a...boyfriend?" He asked. I felt my face burning up intensely. I probably look like a tomato. Why was he asking that? "No.. why?" I asked. "I mean you're so innocent and .. p-pretty.." He finished. Wow. No one has ever said that to me. Yeah i've had a few crushes but Johnny is something else. "Awe. Thank you." I smiled at him. He blushed a little. "So you wanna hang with the gang later?" He asked. "Of course." I said. "Ok i'm gonna go get ready." I said. "Alright cya." He replied.

"Get in the car guys!!" Mom yells at me and Johnny. "Comin!!" Johnny shouts back. I rush downstairs and Johnny gets off the couch staring at me for a little before he noticed it. I guess I looked nice. I was wearing white ripped jeans, a red sweatshirt , and white converse. "Come on let's go." I smiled at him. He walked out of the house and I walked behind him, closing the door and locking it. I got in the back of the car, Johnny next to me, and mom driving. "So we're gonna buy Johnny a few clothes and then i'll drop y'all off at Pony's." Mom explained. "Alrighty."

We finally got to a small thrift store because we couldn't afford the expensive stuff. We pulled up in the parking lot and I jumped out of the car and then Johnny coming out behind me. There were lots of mustangs. "Damn. Mustangs sure are tuff." Johnny said sighing. "Yup." I replied. "Stay with me guys." Mom said. We walked into the small thrift store and it smelled like candles. Pumpkin Pie to be exact. It sure was cold in there. "Johnny pick out 5 shirts, 4 pants, and 2 shoes and if you want you can get a leather jacket or something. And we'll go somewhere else to ya know.. buy.. boy.. things.." My mom chuckled. I giggled and he smiled while laughing, "Alright. Thank you."

He finally got done and put everything on the counter. I just got some black converse and a long sleeve shirt that said "Tulsa, Oklahoma." The cashier scanned our items. "18$." He said. Wow that's actually kind of cheap. My mom handed him the money and he put everything in the bags. I gave Johnny the bag of his things and he couldn't help but give a big smile. He looked up at me and hugged me & then my mom. "Thank you guys so much!!" He exclaimed. "Anything for you." I smiled.

We got in the car and I turned on the radio. "Endless Love, By: Lionel Richie" was playing. I turned it up a bit and sat back down. My mom put the windows down and my wavy h/c hair starts flying back with the wind. I looked at Johnny and he looked back smiling at me. I couldn't help but smile back. I moved closer to him and hugged him. We both stared at the sky for a long time. "Love you." He said. "Love you too." I said kissing his scar.

a/n: I need a boyfriend like this :/ anyways, how are yall?