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Part 5

After we went inside I went up stairs to take a nap 

 when I woke up my mood immidiatley changed whenever I heard a voice that was all too familiar

Lucy

I walked downstairs as quietly as possible so I could hear what they were saying 

"look lauren I've changed please forgive me . I have never loved anyone the way I love you" lucy said 

How fucking dare she quote Nicole like that. That's just disrespectful to wayhaught.

I honestly wanted to throw up. 

That fucking lying bitch. 

Well lauren told me she knows she'll never change so she is not gonna take her back

"lucy.....ok but this is it...no more chances" lauren said 

No this can't true I must be dreaming

she said she won't take her back

 I couldn't believe what I just heard so I ran to my room and started crying until I fell asleep

*

I woke up a few hours later and remembered what had happened so I started singing 

but of course, because the song I chose, I started tearing up again

I didn't want to cry so I tried holding back the tears

key word: tried

  What's on your mind?
'Cause I've been thinking 'bout last night
What's the time?
Feels like I've sat here all my life

Your ship rolls in, I'm here waiting
I don't know why, I'm paralyzed
Oh, what I'd do to be with you
Oh, what I'd give

To hear you say that 'I love you'
But say it the way I do
There's nowhere to run tonight
It's just you and I, in this hotel room
And say that 'I miss you'
But say it the way I do
There's nowhere to hide tonight
My eyes can't lie, the way I feel for you
Just give me a moment, it's all I ask of you
While I'm dying in this hotel room

Couldn't work out, why you gave me all those signs
So tell me now, before I lose my mind

Your ship sails in, I am waiting
You stand close by, and watch me cry
Oh, what I'd do to be with you
Oh, what I'd give

To hear you say that 'I love you'
But say it the way I do
There's nowhere to run tonight
It's just you and I, in this hotel room
And say that 'I miss you'
But say it the way I do
There's nowhere to hide tonight
My eyes can't lie, the way I feel for you
Just give me a moment, it's all I ask of you
While I'm dying in this hotel room

Hold out your hand
Give me a light in the dark
You know that I'm broken
Don't leave me here broken

At this point I didn't bother holding back the tears because there was no use

To hear you say that 'I love you'
But hear it the way I do
There's nowhere to run tonight
It's just you and I, in this hotel room
And say that 'I miss you'
But say it the way I do
There's nowhere to hide tonight
My eyes can't lie, the way I feel for you
Just give me a moment, it's all I ask of you
Oh, give me a moment, it's all I ask of you
While I'm dying in this hotel room  

When I finished I was sobbing and I couldn't deal with this pain. I finally thought me and Lauren were finally getting somewhere but of course Lucy came along and ruined it

I'm starting to think that this is a sign that maybe we are not meant for each other and that I should just give up because I can't take this anymore

"You'll never love me the way I love you" I said to myself 

I got up to go and get something to drink and of course Lauren was standing in my door way. 

"you took her back" I said above a whisper

"I agreed to one date. Besides it's better this way" she whispered

I don't think I was suppose to hear that last part but I did

"It doesn't matter because you'll forgive her. you always forgive her" I said sadly

"well obviously it does by the way your acting. whats wrong?' she asked

what the hell might as well tell her

"Because I love you" I said barely above a whisper

"what?" she asked 

"I LOVE YOU BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DO YOU ALWAYS FORGIVE HER AND YOU'LL ALWAYS GO BACK TO HER. BECAUSE I'M YOUR SISTER AND THAT'S ALL I'LL EVER BE" I yelled

I quickly pushed her out of the way and slammed my door and went to sleep 

I did not want to wake up anytime soon

luckily I wouldn't have to