I'd wait forever (CAMREN)

Part 9

Laurens POV

Its been  6 months and camila is still not awake and it's killing me 

Ever since the accident I have not left this room. I wanna be the first person she see's when she wakes up.

"I don't know if you can hear me camz, but, I need you pl-please wake up. It's so hard without you. I know I should've told you sooner but I was scared. I was so scared to lose you so I never told you and now I might actually lose you and I can't camila. I-I-I can't lose you. you mean the world to me" I said while tearing up

I told our parents and Dinah to go and get some rest and I'll call them if anything happens

"I feel like maybe there's a little part of you that can hear me so hear it goes" I said

It's clear me and her are not good at communicating so I decided to do the only talking I really know how to do. 

That was singing 

I can't ever really say how I feel. I feel so much all the time, that it's hard to just say. But I feel like music is the only I can really express exactly how I feel. 

"I should've done this a long time ago but, there's no time like the present" I whispered

  
It'll be 'til the end, give me nothing I've ever tried
It'll be the perfect sin, something like the truest lie
Everywhere somehow, the only place I'll ever be
As long as you hold me down, oh such a liberty

Warm me with your touch, pressure from your fingertips
Never be enough, I'll do nothing but submit

I just wanna feel a thousand hands from you, only you
Can you make me feel a thousand hands from you, only you?

Grab a hold of my soul and make me feel complete within
You'll be the one to show these goosebumps on my skin
I'll wear my heart on my sleeve, I need you to feel the pain
Would you take a bullet for me? Cause you know I'll do the same

Warm me with your touch, pressure from your fingertips
Never be enough, I'll do nothing but submit

I just wanna feel a thousand hands from you and only you
Can you make me feel a thousand hands from you and only you?

I just want to feel a thousand, from you
A thousand hands from you
Just wanna feel a thousand
A thousand hands from you
Feel a thousand hands from you  

"I am so in love with you Karla Camila Cabello Estrabao and I promise to stay by your side forever" I whispered

I laid down on her bed next to her and before I knew it I fell asleep

*

I woke up a few hours later to the sound of a camera going off. I heard Dinah and Normani laughing about something

"Laurmila is everything" I heard Normani say

I opened my eyes to see Dinah punch normani in the arm

"OW What the hell, you ass" she said

"It's Camren yo" She said clearly annoyed by the horrible ship name she said

"you kinda deserved that Mani" I said 

"I mean really, Laurmila" I finished while laughing

I got up to quickly be engulfed in a group hug

"guys.....I....can't....breathe" I managed to say

"Sorry" they said simultaneously

"I know over these past months I've seemed...not myself but that's because I lost apart of myself when she got hurt. I mean I didn't really lose her because she's still alive but it's not the same. I don't get to hear her beautiful laugh, I don't get to see her heart warming smile, I don't get to look her in the eyes and be reminded why I fell in love her in the first place. It's hard guys. seeing her like this and not being able to do anything about it. It's even harder knowing that if she doesn't pull through she'll never know. She'll never know that I am so in love with her" I said

Of course after I was done talking they hugged me again. but at least this time I could breathe

"Lauren, you have been strong. Stronger than you might believe. I know it's hard not being able to help and it really sucks that we couldn't stop this but it will work out. I know when you look at her it's hard to believe but I know. I can feel it" Dinah said while tearing up 

*

It's been about two hours since Dinah and Normani left.

"Camila no matter how many times I sit here I still can't believe it's real. Sometimes I look at you and I pinch myself hoping that I'm gonna wake up and be in your arms and all of this was a bad dream. yet It never happens, I'm still here and you're still asleep. Please camila I need you. Please wake up. It's way too hard to wake up here and see you like this, but I'm not going anywhere. How about I sing for you. I'm sorry I never told you sooner, and it might not even matter. You could wake up tomorrow and have no memory of loving me. This probably is the worst time but I don't want to waste another day without telling you how much I love you.

I got up and moved the chair closer to her bed and started singing

You know me the best
You know my worst, see me hurt, but you don't judge
That, right there, is the scariest feeling
Opening and closing up again
I've been hurt so I don't trust

Now here we are, staring at the ceiling

I've said those words before but it was a lie
And you deserve to hear them a thousand times

If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?
If all it is is eight letters
Why am I in my own way?
Why do I pull you close
And then ask you for space
If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?

Isn't it amazing how almost every line on our hands align
When your hand's in mine
It's like I'm whole again, isn't that a sign
I should speak my mind

I've said those words before but it was a lie
And you deserve to hear them a thousand times

If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?
If all it is is eight letters
Why am I in my own way?
Why do I pull you close
And then ask you for space?
If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say? 

Uh uh
When I close my eyes
It's you there in my mind
When I close my eyes

If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?
If all it is is eight letters
Why am I in my own way?
Why do I pull you close
And then ask you for space
If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?If all it is is eight letters
When I close my eyes
It's you there in my mind 
When I close my eyes
If all it is is eight letters
When I close my eyes
It's you there in my mind
When I close my eyes
If all it is is eight letters

"Please don't leave me camila" I whispered

and then it happened