I'd wait forever (CAMREN)

Part 12

Camilas POV

  NO please tell me that I am dreaming and I did not see Lucy. I feel like I'm going to-   

"LAUREN!" I screamed

Before I could fully understand what was happening my bedroom door swung open and I was engulfed into a bone crushing hug

"It's not suppose to be this way. You're not suppose to be with Lucy. How could you!" I mumbled but slowly got louder the angrier I got

"How could you kiss her?! Are you trying to hurt me!?" I yelled while pushing her off of me

"Why do you keep breaking my heart" I whispered to myself

"please leave" I barley said above a whispered

She left, and it kinda hurt how easily she walked away.

Laurens POV

"why do you keep breaking my heart" 

I probably wasn't suppose to hear that but I did.  

"please leave"

So I did. I didn't want to. My heart was screaming tell her, fix this, but my head kept reminding that she was with Austin so there's nothing to fix.

I immediately went to my room to get ready to go to school. This'll be camila and I's first day back since her accident. Luckily the principle understood our situation so we won't have to make up all of our work, just some.

"GIRLS COME ON, YOU DON'T WANNA BE LATE. AND DON'T FORGET LAUREN THIS TIME CAMILA" Sinhue yelled from downstairs

Great this car ride is going to be amazing

*

Just as I expected. This is so awkward. Thank god for the radio.

 But because outside forces are so nice, I got the call of a lifetime.

"Hey....Lucy" I said quietly but not quietly enough

Camila whipped into her parking spot, turned off the car, and slammed her door, leaving me alone with this agonizingly painful guilty feeling.

"You know what...FUCK YOU. ALL YOU DO IS RUIN EVERYTHING AND I HATE YOU SO MUCH. SO IF YOU COULD FUCK OFF AND NEVER EVER TALK, TOUCH, OR TEXT ME AGAIN THAT'D BE FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC. HERE I'LL TAKE THE FIRST STEP CONSIDER YOURSELF BLOCKED" I yelled

I quickly hung up and blocked her number, and proceeded to block her on every social media platform I have

After that I started crying, not just crying, sobbing. I felt so horrible. I guess that's what she meant when she asked why I keep on her breaking her heart. God I'm so fucking stupid.

I don't know when but at some point I feel asleep.

Camilas POV

"hey....Lucy" 

what the actual fuck it's like she never learns. No matter what we go through she always runs back to her.

I whipped into my parking spot, turned off my car, and slammed my door. As I was walking away I stopped feigning anger and started crying...again. There she goes breaking my heart. At this point I thought I couldn't feel any more pain but of course she goes and hurts me and proves me wrong.

There's no point in crying anymore. I quickly went to the bathroom, cleaned myself up, and met up with DJ and Mani.

Luckily I like to leave early, even though my mom will say otherwise, so me and my girls have plenty of time to talk and eat breakfast.

"Girl, really. How can you have any more tears left to cry" Dinah asked me

"right now I'm in a state of mind, I'd like to be in all the time" I sang playfully trying to distract her from the question.

"Nuh uh Mila. You ain't getting out of it that easy" she scolded me

"Fine. When I came home from the hospital I saw lauren and lucy kissing on the front porch. then I kept dreaming about it that night, and at some point I woke up and screamed Lauren and she immediately came in and hugged me and I threw her off of me and yelled why are you trying to hurt me and then whispered why do you keep breaking my heart and I asked her to leave and she did. which hurt a lot more than I thought it would. It was... it was like even after everything we've been through she leaves like it's nothing. Then my mom yelled for us to get ready to leave so I did and as I was pulling up to the school Laurens phone rings....and it was Lucy. I immediately parked my car and slammed my door.I was so mad and that quickly turned into sadness because she did it again. she managed to break my heart even further. Guys it's clear that things are getting lost in translation. she clearly doesn't love me the way I love her. and I have to accept that

*rriiiiinnnnnnggggg*

Saved by the bell

I was sitting in class when suddenly some students came in and handed out sheets for the talent show. I thought why the hell not so I signed up. 

I have 3 weeks to come up with a song to- actually I have the perfect song. And if I know Lauren, which it's starting to look like I don't, there is a 99.9% chance of her being there. I'm going to put it all out on the line. I don't care anymore.

* 

Finally school was over. as I was leaving I realized that I didn't see Lauren once today which was really weird because I usually always see her. as I got closer to my car I realized why I didn't see Lauren today.

"oh god please don't be dead. please don't be dead" I whispered as I picked up my pace

Oh, so this is what laura felt like when Dani carried carmilla back from the angler god pit

I opened up my door and started shaking Lauren to wake her up. She started to move so I shook her harder so she'd get up. When she was finally awake she looked at me waiting for me to answer but then she quickly looked away.

"Oh right....school...see ya" she said while opening the door

"School's over" I said

I quickly leaned over and grabbed her wrist. she sat back down and we just starred deeply into each others eyes. I quickly noticed that her eyes were red a little swollen but once she noticed that I noticed she quickly ripped her hand out of mine and looked out of the window.

"Have you been c-" I tried to say

"Please drive" she whispered

and so I did. If this wan't proof enough that she didn't love me then I don't know what is. I never should have told her how I felt.

"There's a talent show in 3 weeks, Figured you didn't get the memo so..." I said

"Th-thanks" she stuttered

I knew she was crying but obviously she didn't want to talk about it with me.

I don't think me singing a song about how much I love her is going to help anything but it's obvious that there is no fixing me and her so.... I'm not really hurting anything at this point

Laurens POV

On the ride home I couldn't stop my self from crying. This was it. everything thing between us was broken and it was my fault. Fucking Lucy. I am going to use this talent show to my advantage. I can't really screw anything else up at this point.

I don't wanna let go. Even though I know it's too late