Are We Meant To Be? Part 1

Honest? or just drunk?

At BTS's dorm~

JIMIN'S POV~

Chae walked towards me wearing a tiny red dress which showed lot of skin. She looked really hot! My breath hitched when she came close to my face and smiled sexily.
Wow! She's sexy!
Suddenly my vision became blurry. I saw Chae turn around and do something and then my vision became clear again.
I saw Chae sitting on my lap, facing me. I didn't realise, I was sitting this whole time.
My breath hitched. "Oppa...." She said flirtily. I looked down to see something wierd, she didn't have her dress on, only skin. Is she naked?
I woke up heavily breathing.
"What the hell was that?" I said to myself heavily panting.
"Good morning to you too jiminie~" hoseok hyung said sarcastically looking into his phone. "Wow...That was erotic!" I said to myself blushing. "Seriously! What have you been watching kid?" Hoseok hyung exclaimed with an amused tone. "It was just a dream..." I said explaining myself. "You horny kid! Look down!" He said. I looked down and saw the problem that the dream created.
"Oh...I'll go take a shower..." I said awkwardly, trying to hide my crotch and getting up.
"Want me to leave? I'll leave" He said teasingly. "Just go hyung!" I said and he left laughing.
I locked the door and searched for the clothes that I was gonna wear today.
"How can she look like that? I always thought of her, as this innocent, stupid girl who's really cute. But I guess that's another side I didn't know about..." I said to myself .
"Argh I have to get rid of this..." I said looking down at my crotch.
"Jimin-ah, are you done?" I heard taehyungie say, followed by a laughing sound which was hobi hyung and taehyung's.
Argh! This is so embarrassing!
I ran into the bathroom.

I came out of the shower, wore my clothes and headed towards the living room where all of them were getting ready to go to practice.
I walked to the kitchen counter and started taking out a bowl and preparing myself cereal. As I was doing it. I saw taehyungie and hoseok hyung slide on the side opposite to me. I ignored them and continued doing my thing.
I lifted up my head when I heard nothing. They were both staring at me with smug looks.
"So tell me jiminie, how did it happen?" Taehyungie asked teasingly.  "Just because of that little dream you get that?" Hoseok hyung said laughing.
They both were laughing and I just moved away from them.
"Don't let yourself get distracted during practice tho!" Taehyungie said laughing.

At the dance studio~

I was practicing after doing it with the whole group ofcourse, I was doing it  individually.
She's so much different than the others in BLACKPINK. She's stupid but cute. She's pretty!
And sexy! I didn't know.
I am done practicing and sat in an isolated corner. Is she really that hot tho? I can't really believe, cause I've never really seen her like that, except in my dream.
I took my phone out and went to YouTube and searched rosé.
I was scrolling down the videos and came across one video called 'Rosé VS Chaeyoung'.
I saw the video, it wasn't too hot like my dream ofcourse, but I saw how she manages to look sexy with her innocent cute face. It was her face, but mostly her personality which made her attractive. Among all blackpink members, I always had a crush on (y/n), but when me and Chae got close, it was almost like I could only think about Chae and the things she says and does which are so stupid but cute at the same time. I still can't believe, that dummy could replace my thoughts about (y/n) with her's
even though we were just friends, or are we just friends? I get a wierd feeling when I'm with her, it's like we are more than 'just friends' . It's not like in the movies, the, 'we look like friends, but we also exchange saliva' . It's more like, we are just friends, but we have this wierd attraction towards each other and we know it, but we somehow feel comfortable with each other, being 'just friends' even though we have feelings for each other.
Yes, I know chae has a crush on me, but I'm so cool about it, it doesn't even bother me cause she thinks I can't date girls like her and she's absolutely correct. I can't date girls like her and specifically her.
I mean look at her, she's so tall, she's very shy and she's a total dummy, I mean I don't imagine myself dating a girl who I constantly tease and laugh at about being a dummy and praise myself instead.
But it's like you don't realise you have it until you realize it you know what I mean?
I like chae, in a romantic way, I've realized it, but I don't know....If I can date her, I don't wanna date her, I might be breaking her heart but I don't wanna date her. I wanna be just like how we are right now, like friends. I don't even know if she knows what kind of relationship we share, if she even knows that I like her. It sounds bad, it sounds shallow.
Am I running away from my problems? Yes, maybe even the best of my chances with finding love that too with a girl I can be myself with, I can do wierd things with, my best friend. But I can't, I don't know why.
"Ah, jiminie? What are you doing all alone?" Namjoon hyung came out of no where.
I quickly put my phone down and into my pocket.
"Ah, hyung I was just um." I said hesitantly. He saw my reaction and smiled weirdly.
"Were you doing what I think you were?" He said in a dirty way. He thinks I'm watching that?
"Hyung, why would i watch that at this hour, I'm already tiered!" I said in an obvious tone.
"I heard about your 'you know what' which happened this  morning...not cool dude! Not during work days!"
He said amused.
"Woww, words travel fast...Really fast." I said to myself, loud enough for those two idiots taehyung and hobi hyung to hear. They both turned around to look at an amused RM and an angry me, they smiled wierdly and continued to do what they were doing.
"Anyways, you can join us to eat you know, it's a fresh meal" namjoon hyung said turning around to leave.
"Yeah, i'll be there in a bit." I said and I was about to check my phone for some more.
"Also" Namjoon hyung said turning around. I quickly put my phone down. He smiled at me again when he saw my reaction. "We've got a Vlive to do later this evening, we'll do it during dinner with soju (wine) and everything, we'll be dinking chim, so please don't skip dinner and just drink, you don't wanna be embarrassed."
He said and I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not a teenager anymore hyung, I can handle getting drunk so you may leave!" I said irritated. He laughed and left.
*Rringrringrring* my phone rang. I unlocked it to see the caller ID. It was Chae. I suddenly felt anxious. I'm never anxious to talk to this dummy!?
I was still battling weather I should pick up or not pick up.
"Aren't you gonna answer it?" Jungkook said looking at me.
I didn't realise he was around.
"Ah-hmm, yeah.." I said and picked up.
"Hey, Chae..Young" i said. "Hey sunbae-what? Did you just call me Chaeyoung?" she asked shocked. "D-Did I ?" I asked stupidly. "What's wrong with you?Have you been well?" She asked concern in her voice. "Ah...Of course I am...." I said and there was silence.
"You sound uncomfortable..." She said and I froze. "Wh-what do you mean? Uncomfortable...
..I'm just sleepy that's all...." I lied. "Oh...That explains it..." She said and I sighed in relief.
"So, why'd you call?" I asked.
"I was missing you..."she said and I definitely got the wrong idea because I started blushing.
"..........." I went silent.
"In your dreams boy! Did you actually think I was serious?" She said awkwardly like she was uncomfortable now cause she was probably expecting me to say something flirticious.
".........." I didn't know what to say so I was quiet.
"Sunbae?Are you sleeping?" She asked. "Ah-ah no no-" I finally spoke and she cut me off. "Then you probably should, your seriously messed up....." she said.
"Ah...." Once again I didn't know what to say. "K bye." she said. "Ah-bye" I said awkwardly and hung up.
*Long sigh* I sighed and held my head out of confusion overtaking my mind. Just a week ago I wanted us to stay friends and it was normal but...
Im seriously so confused right now.
Nonono Jimin! You're in heat, that's all, that's just a stupid sexual fantasy, that's all! It doesn't mean anything!
I will go back to normal when I hang out with that dummy later.....
"Woww! Jimin hyung you really are something! You better tell me what's going on here!" Jungkook's said smiling weirdly at me, I didn't notice he was listening to me talking to Chae.
"That's none of your business little one, so focus on your little wedding, would ya?" I said bluntly and fake smiled at him.
" 'little one'? What do I look twelve? I might be young hyung, but you don't know what goes on in here." He said pointing at his head down to his crotch. "Sure..." I said and walked past him. "I heard people talking about your little thing this morning. And You call me 'a kid' pfft!" He said bluntly and my face burned up. I'm not even sure if that brat has watched 'the dirty' , what is he blabbing about?
I heard taehyung and hobi hyung laughing like wierdoes. "Oh for God's sake you two!" I yelled at the two men ,which made them laugh even more.
I need to get my shit together when I see her again, even though I just had an awkward conversation with her.
I wanna see her, I wanna hear her voice again.