Hi, I'm miles. I go as he/him I am a FTM I find my life in my eyes as a dark hole of depression and misunderstanding. My life is all "Imperfection". I try to deal with what I have so I don't lose more. I don't want to let more in cause I'm afraid of getting hurt again. It's like a battle of the heart and mind. Even though I already know fear won I let them fight to the death. I feel slowly I'm losing faith, trust, care. It's all just going down the drain. But I'm still holding on. But I started feeling cautious and very afraid around 7th grade. That's when I started to lose freinds. Got bullied. And had a lot just on my mind. I hid it all with an "I'm okay:)" and just pretended nothing bothered me. It worked for the most part. But then I started losing faith and trust in myself. In my eyes I feel toxic. I feel helpless. I feel worthless. Nobody can change what's in my eyes but I am greatful for the ones that try. I'm trying to gain faith in myself again. It's going ok now. But I feel like everytime I try I always get let down by something and all my effort goes in a unknown place that I can't seem to find.
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