Please don't go (Alec Benjamin)

Part 5:fault

                                                                  "You don't know what you hide is providing
                                                                     Me with everything I need."

Lily's POV

I have always had a crush on Alec. He was just so sweet and funny.
But when Macy came along and ruined everything.
Now I finally have him all to myself.
Today me and Alec are going on a date I'm so excited.

Alec's POV
Me and lily have a date. I'm still in love with Macy but I can't help it I just have to have her off my mind.

Back to Lily's POV
I get out of the shower blow dry my hair and curl it.
I pick out a dress and put it on with some make up.

I look in the mirror and I say to myself finally.

Alec's POV (sorry lol)

I grab my outfit an put it on.

I walk out the door and go to pick up lily.
(Time skip)
I see lily and God does she look like an angel.
She gets in the car with the biggest smile on her face.
"Hey"
"Hey"
"Where are we going Alec?"
"It's a surprise just wait you will see."
(Time skip again sorry please forgive me:))
I take her hand and lead her to a fancy restaurant (btw it cost me $500)
"Wow it's so beautiful in here."
"Like you " I say confidently
We finally sit down and talk.
I don't know but am I really just using lily for Macy.
Lily is a sweet girl. But Macy is like a goddess.
I have always had feeling for Macy ever since. I still feel like Macy is the one for me.
But lily is here in my life right now so I guess I just have to suck it up for now.
Me and lily start having a conversation about each other then out of no where from the corner of my eye I see Macy and Dylan.
"Are you okay babe?" She asks.
Babe I hate when she says it.
Something inside of me just wanted to yell.
I never win do I.
I start crying out of no where and lily turns around to see what I'm looking at.
She turns to me with a sad look and grabs my hand and says "Alec please don't pay attention to her." I get up from my seat.
I walk over to lily I grab her face and kiss her.

Macy's POV
I look over to see Alec kissing lily.
I feel tears form my eyes.
I was gonna give him a second chance and this is what he does.kiss my best friend.
I get up I walk over to him I tap him on the shoulder.
He turns around "oh hey m-"
I cut him off by slapping him across the face.
"What the fuck is wrong with you." I say coldly.
Then I go up to Dylan I grab his hands and walk out of the restaurant.
Alec's POV
I look down this is all my fault.
"Hey Alec are y-"
"I'm fine lets just go."
(Time skip to Alec's house)
Me and lily are sitting on the couch I have my head in my hands crying while she is just staying silent.
"Alec please talk to me." She grabs my arm with a sad look on her face.
I stay silent but I look up at her.
"You still love her don't you?" She says
Her words take me back.
I'm already ruining two relationships it's all my fault.
She then gets up and leaves.
I start crying and yelling in my pillow .
I do the only thing that makes me numb the pain.

(Trigger warning sorry)
I go to the bathroom and grab the razor .
I cut real deep and start crying in pain but still it feels so good.
It's starts bleeding like crazy but it makes me happy.
I realize I should stop. I rinse water on it and put bandages on it.
(End o trigger warning)
I lay in bed realizing how much of my life is just a mess and I want it to end.
But maybe if I just have a little hope then thing can change either for the better or the worse.

Heyyyyy wassuup I think this one is really good do you think and sorry for the trigger warning but just had to but I hope you like it and guess what I got a boyfriend yay I don't if you care or not but still but I hope you have a good day and luv you and byyyyyeyyeyeyyeyey 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓😊😊😊💓😊💓💓