Part 9 : MIXED FEELINGS

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        "Cause there's no one to love her and you built your walls to high
             And there is no one to love you when you build your walls too high."

Alec's POV
I'm now afraid to leave my sister alone.i haven't even thought about Macy.
Which makes me even more scared about her.
I decided I would go see her.
I went out to go to her house to see how she has been even though she is mad at me.

Zoes POV
My feelings have been confusing lately.
I don't know who I love anymore .
How could I trust Alec if all he does is leave me then comes back and says he loves me.
I have been alone for past days.
I understand it's hard on him but I just can't think clearly anymore.
After hours of laying in the couch I hear a knock on my door.
I drag myself to get the door and when I open it I regret opening the door even more.
"Hey Macy how are you?" Alec says trying to sound like nothing happened
"Don't act like that it gets me even more pissed off." I roll my eyes and let him come in.
"Sorry for being kind." We sit on the couch and don't make conversation
"Look I'm ......I'm sorry for the way I was. I shouldn't have freaked out on you" Alec says moving closer to me.
Oh no
"Alec don't be like that we all know how this is gonna end." I look down out of sadness thinking he could've been my husband but our relationship was just to toxic.
"Macy I really do love y-" Alec starts but I cut him off
"Why?"
"Why do you love me? No one could ever love me."
"Macy you know that ain't true." He puts his hand on my knee trying to comfort me
"I've learned to not get attached to easily."
"Macy I lov-"
"DONT YOU GET IT! IM AFRAID OF FALLING IN LOVE!" I yell
I stand up and start walking around.
"Every person I fall in love with leaves me." I start crying
"I got to block myself away from love just to keep me safe from falling apart." I say looking him in the eyes.
"I know what you mean Macy." He sounds very calm and relaxed.
He gets up and walks towards me
"I always feel like I have to build a wall to keep me from hurting myself but doing that I figured out no one is gonna love me that way." He looks me in the eyes
"I know you won't believe me when I tell you this Macy but I love you and I never want to hurt you."
I started crying and I fell into his arms.
I still don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong.
But something tells me I could be hurting myself right now.

Hey! It's me I'm sorry for the crappy chapter this one really sucked but I tried. I'm sorry for taking a while also but it really does bring a huge smile on my face seeing people read my story
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