bad 4 me ~HIGH SCHOOL TEA TIME~

quick lil check-in

btw this story is up to date so from now on its current

Me and Claire have officially made up and we talk sometimes now.

JC said he wants me and he seems to hang around me a lot now. We talk a lot and we have a lot of fun.

This entire week, we have been playfighting and cuddling and some.. stuff. Exam week is next week and im going to try to kiss him before its over because he leaves for Colombia during winter break and i wanna kiss him before he leaves because its been like 6 and a half weeks since i have.

Im happy w/ my life and ill update when things go bad.

people say our relationship is toxic but we just lacked the communication and (knock on wood) we finally get it. he told me the other day that if he were to date me again, he would treat me 100 times better. he calls me baby again sometimes now because he knows i like it and he gets jealous and he treats me like his girlfriend even more than he did when we actually dated. I asked him if he wanted to date me again and he said not now because he told everyone else he was 'on a break' but he wasn't opposed to it.

for what i feel, im not quite sure. there are some times where I think that im bored but i think its just because we haven't gotten in fights and so i havent had to think about what i truly want. i hope that makes sense but like when we fight it makes me ask myself why do i love him and so i appreciate him more but idk yea. i dont want commitment but i get jealous and love his attention and sometimes i just sit back and think damn this really is my person, i really do fucking love him.