falling in love too early

c r u s h

1-14-18
I've developed a few crushes and one of them is James and another is also in my gym and drama classes, his name is Sam. I also kind of like this guy in my drama class named Johannes, not very much though.

1-17-18
I really want to try to date one of them but I don't think its healthy to like more people when you're with someone so I need to give it time and let my feelings decide who I want to be with.

1-28-18
I've leveled it down to just Johannes and James and I'm becoming better friends with this girl Mae in my drama and Utah studies classes. She's really nice and I think we'll be close friends.

2-7-18
I've leveled it down to just James and I really want to date him but I'm way too shy to ask him out so I need to put the thought of me in his head and maybe he'll eventually ask me out.

2-9-18
I've been talking to Giovanna and I asked if she would talk to him for me and she said yes so I asked her to ask him if he even knew who I am, he doesn't... That kinda hurt but it's ok.