falling in love too early

m o v i n g o n

3-2-20
I think I have a crush on someone else already... it's only fourth period.. why am I like this?!

3-5-20
8:30 A.M.

I really really like this person..... he makes me feel safe, and his hugs.. when I hug him I just never want to let go... I'm gonna tell him.. I know i like him.

8:58 A.M.
I did it, I gave him a note telling him how I feel when I passed him in the hallway, now we wait until lunch so i can see what he thinks I guess...?

10:40 A.M.
I told Fatima and she said he's in a poly-amorous relationship.. so I might have a chance... might...

10:45 A.M.
He just hugged me and it wasn't like it normally is.. did I mess up..?

1:45 P.M.
It's the beginning of class and Oli (the guy I like) pulled me in for cuddles and it made me so fucking happy :D

2:10 P.M.
Oli and I cuddled all period long, maybe I do have a chance..

2:11 P.M.
Oli just said "So.. I am in a relationship... I'm sorry... but you're really sweet..." great, he rejected me...

3-6-20
Oli and I pass each other in the hall every A day, and on B days we see each other at lunch, and he sat with me at lunch today :)

3-9-20
Oli sits with me at lunch everyday now, he just holds me and it makes me so happy.

3-11-20
I think I might have a chance with him

3-17-20
we don't have school anymore, we have to do online school, today also would have been me and israel's 3 month...

3-20-20
I did something stupid... i texted Israel trying to get him back and he basically told me i'm nothing to him anymore..... I also think i might be losing feelings for Oli.... and possibly catching feelings for someone else.....

3-22-20
6:00 P.M.
I definetely like this other person, he called Whitney cute and it made me so jealous, and I talked to Oli and I don't think I'll ever have a chance with him.... I'm gonna tell the other person I like him though..

7:00 P.M.
I told him.. and he said he likes me too, I can't stop smiling, I just wanna give him a big hug rn ughhhhhhhh

9:00 P.M.
SHIT NEVEAH!!!! HOW COULD I FORGET NEVEAH LIKES HIM!!!! I'M A HORRIBLE FRIEND!! THIS IS GONNA BREAK HER HEART!!!! FUCK!!!

4-2-20
I think I'm falling in love with Braydon....

This is now caught up to real time, I'll update in a new chapter most likely though.