I'll Be Your Gerard If You'll Be My Frank

Going Crazy

{Frank's POV}

Fucking school.

Such a waste of time.

What was the point in going when my mind was a million miles away?

My mind was with Gerard.

I missed him.

I really couldn't stress that enough.

I missed him and I loved him and ugh!

Stupid feelings.

What's love even good for?

Nothing, that's what.

Especially when you can't see the one you love.

He was more than the one I loved though.

He was my reason for existing.

The only thing keeping me alive.

Although, at that moment I felt like I was slowly falling apart.

I needed him.

But there was only one way to have some contact with him.

Well...

Not really contact.

Just messages.

And he wouldn't see them anyway.

Oh well.

Better than nothing.

It was the only thing keeping me from going insane.

It certainly felt like I could go crazy at any moment.

I needed to send him another message.

I should have been leaving for school but... well...

I grabbed my phone.

Clicking on his name, I thought about what I would say.

Instead of starting a new message though, I accidentally clicked on the call button.

I decided to let it ring just to see what would happen.

After it had rung for about six or seven times, the voicemail sounded.

It was Gerard.

Gerard's voice.

Oh my fuck.

I hadn't realised Gerard had recorded his own voicemail message.

It was so adorable how nervous he sounded.

"Uh hi, this is Gerard. I'm probably sketching. Just um leave a message I guess."

It beeped.

For a second, I just sat there, staring into space before I realised I was supposed to be talking.

"Oh, hey. I didn't mean to call. I hit the button by accident. See ya."

I ended the call.

Um...

Wow.

I hadn't expected that at all.

It was nice to hear his voice.

More than nice.

It was amazing.

His voice was so beautiful and I missed it so much.

I hit call again.

It rung...

Until...

"Uh hi, this is Gerard. I'm probably sketching. Just um leave a message I guess."