{Gerard's POV}
"Hey, this is Frank. I'm either sleeping or on Pansy. So fuck off. Kidding. Leave a message."
Beep.
I sighed.
Why did he never answer his fucking phone?
I ran a hand through my hair and spoke into the receiver, "Hey, Frank. It's um... It's Gerard. I was just calling to uh check up. Are you okay? I haven't spoke to you since yesterday and I guess I'm just acting a little paranoid. Just ignore me. But um... Please call me back. I uh... I miss you. Bye."
I ended the call and mentally facepalmed.
I sounded like such a needy boyfriend.
But seriously, I needed to hear his voice.
It would reassure me that everything was okay.
Was it though?
I wasn't too sure anymore.
Frank had said everything was fine.
I felt bad admitting it but I was finding it hard to believe him.
I was certain he was keeping something from me.
Maybe I was just being paranoid.
I really hoped that was the case.
I didn't want anything to happen to Frank.
He meant the world to me.
And I wouldn't know what to do if anything happened to him.
Life wouldn't be worth living.
I'm sure it wasn't anything that bad though.
It was probably nothing.
As I said, I was just being paranoid.
I lay back on my bed and looked up at the stars.
They twinkled down at me and I wished they could tell me what to do because I honestly didn't know anymore.
I felt like I was beginning to slowly lose my mind again.
And I didn't want to head down that road again.
Never again.
I wanted to stay sane and happy.
But the only time I was ever happy was when I was with Frank.
And he wasn't returning my calls.
What could I do?
Go round and see him?
No.
That wasn't a good idea.
That might push him away even more.
His birthday was in a couple of days though and I had everything planned.
I really wished things would be okay by then so I could make it a really special day for him.
Looked like all I could do was hope for the best.
But why?
Why was he pushing me away?
Why was he shutting himself off from everyone?
Was I the problem?
Did he not love me anymore?
Maybe he had never loved me to begin with.
Maybe he had changed his mind.
I had never been good enough for him anyway.
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I'll Be Your Gerard If You'll Be My Frank
FanfictionFrank and Gerard have been through a lot. It's not until they meet when everything goes downhill. Nothing seems to be going right. At least they're just as messed up as each other. A Frerard and a bit of Rikey fanfic.