we always want what we cant have and i think that’s why i wanted you so bad because i knew it was too good
i know you were too good for me because i just couldn’t act right ever because i couldn’t get myself to care enough about myself
(and let’s be real i still don’t care about anything for that matter)
(i don’t know what healing feels like when it’s without you and i’m not saying this to make you sad i just fucking miss what we were i miss the stability of us and there’s nothing i can do about that now)
(i don’t know how to get us back on track because at this point neither of us are trains we’re off-roading and i don’t want to stop you from exploring the countryside)
i wish i could remember more of us and more of you but i keep losing years off my life no matter how hard i try to remember and i thought i wouldn’t have to try so hard to remember you
but it’s so clear to me now that everything i did was take you for granted
i told you i’d put in more effort
i never did
i still don’t
