RAPPER AND SINGER IMAGINES

i got you babygirl

   OKAY  THIS IS FOR  THE  READER ION WANT YALL TO JUDGE ME AIGHT SO I WAS LISTENING TO THIS SONG CALLED FADE AWAY BY XAM AND THIS NIGGA IS SOOOOO DAMN CUTE LIKE NO CAP , BUT HE TALKING BOUT HE WANNA DIE AND SHIT AND HE NOT GONNA CUZ IMA MAKE SURE HIS FINE ASS DONT HE NOT LEAVING ME IN THIS HELL HOLE  OF A WORLD , ( ALSO  I SUFFER FROM  BIPOLAR DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY  PLEASE DONT FEEL BAD FOR ME ION WANT ANY ATTENTION  ON DIS   )  ps if you need someone to talk to my dm's always open , ion care what about 

  sitting  on the bathroom floor  looking at the lights change from red to blue to green as my thighs turn a dark red in straight lines   over and over and over , i cut trying to numb this pain that im not so sure exsist  anymore , its something deep  inside me thats broken  i heard the door open and slam shut signaling my boyfriend  XAM    was home i quickly wiped the blood of my thigh but it kept bleeding , i tried to stop it but i could so i just pulled my  shorts down over my thigh trying to cover it up 

xam; baby where are you , 

me; im up stairs , 

 i walked down the stairs and  hugged him  he grabbed my lef and i winced   , i then covered it up by acting like i hurt my ankle , 

xam; baby you okay 

me; yeah my leg just hurts , um so how was yo day baby 

xam; oh it was so cool i met a fan today she loved  fade away and defeated , she said i sounded like a angel , even tho i dont 

we went to sit on the  couch i crossed my leg  BIIIIIIIG MISTAKE  

xam; and then johnny  said some funny shit and wa- WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOUR LEG  

me; okay one nigga im right here two  i uhh ran into the neighbors cat out side and it scratched the shit out of me , 

 i guess he didnt believe me since he lifted my shorts  and noticed all of the cuts which were about 42 on each leg , ( ion know about other people but i keep track on how much i cut ) 

xam; DATS NOT FROM A CAT  

me; once again   IM RIGHT HERE IM NOT IN AFRICA NIGGA DAMN ,    boutta blow out my fucking eardrum and shit , angel voice my ass  you got a fucking dinosaur voice , 

xam; dis not a time to be funny babe , dis serious .

me; no its not just forget about it 

xam; how , how the fuck am i supposed to forget that the love of my life is hurting herself . and i know how addicting this shit can be  so its gonna take time for you to heal no just your body , your mind to and im not gonna leave you at all im hear for you threw the long run  , I GOT YOU BABY GIRL , 

 i was in tears  i hugged the shit out of him  and kissed him he kissed back  i love him so much,  this is all i ever wanted , was to feel love and wanted  , he is right i am addicted to it and im gonna try to stop . 

xam; can i see it again please,

me; huh  o-okay i guess  

 i lifted up both my shorts leg  and he just gasped , tbh he acting like its a big deal , ( a/n; bitch it is ) what who the fuck  are you ( a/n; dont worry bout it just finish the story so i can take my noctarnal ass to sleep , ) all right all right ,

  he ran his fingers up and down the side of my legs , and i saw a tear go  down his face 

me ; baby please dont cry okay its not that bad  i didnt cut to deep and i cant die from this i only do it so i can feel alive okay i only do it when im alone i'll try to stop i promise , okay pinky promise , 

i held y pinkie out 

xam; baby you childish  he said locking his pinkine with mine . "pinky promise 

me; you love my childish ass so be quiet , i sid getting up 

xam; and i love dat ass too , he said slapping my ass HELLA hard 

me; owwww XAAAM  damn you play to much 

xam; hahahhahahah